BEAUDELAIRE UNLEASH WORLD..

2009-11-09T10:54:00.001+08:00

Hello babiess:))
i have movedd~!
to livejournal now...Relink meeeeeeeeeee~!!
Don't worry babies,ITS PUBLIC:)

here's the address:

http://kiki1991.livejournal.com/

Meet you thereeee~~!

Love,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-10-31T23:59:00.003+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)
Well..
hubby,i guess we could start it all over again.
Happy 1 year 5 month Anniversary,
i know i have been a complicated wife...
I'm truly sorry,but i guess..
Those kisses that you gave,did set my stomach into butterfly again.
I guess..after we talk things out..'
I'll give us Another chance..
to prove that our relationship does exist..
& u as my hubby...
i'm really touched when u say,
u will do everything u can..
to make sure i'll be ur 1 & only wife..once & forever..
& for one real moment,i just wanna say..
I love you..

Sorry for a complicated relationship..
I've just watched "he's just not tat into u"
& it does made me think again..
& taught me a lesson.
well,dear hubby yazri..
i love you

2009-10-22T02:05:00.003+08:00

Our very first conversation aka the first time i talk to him in my real life..

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

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Haish...
this song..create so much memories..
i seriously dont know how i should feel right now...

2009-10-16T01:12:00.002+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Hello babiess~!!

well...its pretty much subjective on how bored i am right now...

I cant go on sleeping cos i have this feeling of i-feel-super-bored-that-i-cant-sleep.

Ok...CRAP!i know..hahhaa!

Well..today was just a normal boring day~!

should have requested to have work today..hurhur..~!

but looking at the bright side of life,i did get some benefit from not going work today such as

getting treated by Uncle/Auntie to Sakura...& spending more beloved time wif my Pink laptop

-_-" i know..hahah

Well...i also get some "alone time" for myself...*seeing that i have been too packed & busy that i have no time to breath!*

Oklah tuu~!

well..hmm..other than that..there wasnt any higlight for today except for my dreaming part of having my future house painted hot pink & black/white+ the concept too~!

& thinking about enjoying my teenage life as much as i can before i grow old.

For now,i really envied my mom cos she had achieved everything..& she's still under 4o years old..but she's a happy & successful mom now.

Let see..She still have her beautiful look,her own beautiful house,a beautiful car,a goodlooking boyfie..stabled money & getting to buy all the expensive stuff like Victoria secret items*thats where i get all my victoria secret bags*

Dior items,Mac makeups,Guess watches..

etc..

in another word.i want to be like her.!

Sadly,i dont live with her,so yeah..

i had to stay wif my daddy..

+ go through all the dramas in this house..

the maid..the siblings..

haish..

but whatever it is,i love my beautiful mom the most!

She's my inspiration..she never fails to bring us out when we need it,never fails to cheer us up when we are having problems..

She always treats us n never forget about us n buying us the stuff that she buys for herself..

recently,she gave me this big hot pink victoria secret bag+ Guess watch for Hari Raya gift..

Letting us overnight at her house when she have off days.

Showering us wif love...

in another word..

I love her n she meants the world to me.

Mom,i love you!

I miss you too..:(

Lucky,this sat we are having barbeque at changi beach..

yeay!cant wait to meet you mummy!

Ok...
Lets Skip this topic..

back to what i did yesterday..

Yesterday morning,i went to AH for the interview.

I really dont know the outcome of it..

I wont put much hope on it..since their standard is quite high..

Well..i can only wish that i'll get the sponsorship..

well..putting that aside...

I dont really know what to do right now..

One thing for sure is that,i cant wait for the Store outing aka Sb-Sw chalet!

yeay!its 3 days 2 night...!

At the new East Coast chalet if i'm not wrong..

well..shall not be too excited bout it or things will go out badway..

& & One more things that i'm excited is that..

SCHOOLS RE-OPENING SOOON!!

cant wait to meet all my gerek classmates n Poly mates again!

i miss them!!

i even bought a new HotPink shawl for those cold lecture time..!

yeay!

New semester already,

Must STUDY hard!

yeay!

klah..thats all for today...

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-10-14T00:58:00.004+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday Hubby!
You know i always love you...
Now you're a grown man alrd,hope you serve your NS successfully
n we can enjoy in the later life.
Ily my man!

Since today you can only spare one hour before you go back to camp,

*since his camp was nearby,n he had a short break n before 10pm he had to bookin again on the same day,we decide to meet even for just a short period of time.*

we'll postpone our celebration to weekends...aitey dear?

eventhough,its a short time frame when we meet,

i treasure the time we had together..

thanks for praising me today..

Hahaha..its all for you dear...

n I'm Yours~~!

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

2009-10-13T13:18:00.003+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)
REMEMBER TO PAUSE MY MUSIC PLAYER FIRST TO PLAY THIS VIDEO!

ohmy!this song uh...
the current hits in my head...!
& ciara rocks the house babeh!
everything about her is just uber sexy!
n that guy uh...wootss!!
hott!
well..Enjoy~!
I'M IN LOVE.....WIF THIS MUSIC VIDEO!

2009-10-11T22:39:00.003+08:00

HELLO PEEPS..
i just have something to say...
its MY blog,My SAY.!
So...if u have something against me,
Come,face to face wif me..
dont be a no life biatch that hides behind the computer..
tagging as Anonymous n etc..
hahhaa...
you know what,i just had a feeling you love reading my blog.
muahaha..
its seems like,eventhough i've BAN u from my tagboard,
u seems to be using other comp to tag..
No LIFE per..
For once n for all..
Come face to face with me n see whether you wanna say it on my face,
n things like,i dunno how to makeup n all..
Ehk...HELLO!
since when did i even say i'm a professional MAKEUP ARTIST?
hahahah!
n since when did my makeup even bother you?
it hurts ur eye izit?THEN WHY BOTHER SEE??
Haha...at least i bother to try..
n yeah..i love my eyeliner n eyeshimmer,
salah ke?
JEALOUS EHK??
nak i pakai kan?
hahaha..really uh...
so what if it match or not with my leher
*which you must be blind cos it always match;p*
i couldnt care less...
for what i wanna please you?
you are not some judges..
nor are you my parents!
SO GET OFF my blog!
n so what if i delete the tag,its my tagboard...suka hati uh..!
Hahaha..
OOPS!i shouldnt entertain no life people who have nothing to tag...so they just pick a topic n hatetag..
Excuse me,what do you gain from doing all this?
Pride?i bet you ego must be high.
Only other no life people will support you..
its just the same old topic...
i just cant be bother anymore after this..
Entertaining a No life people is just too boring...
I rather do some things that make me gain somethings than to reply ur hatetag..
i tried to be nice but you have been melampau..
thankfully i had nice frens too..!
So yeah...if you guys wanna go on entertaining him/her,Go on..
For me...i cant be bothered anymore..
So those who wanna support him/her...
Go ahead...
but Dont dirty my tagboard.
I'll soon Clean up my tagboard.
So..be prepare,once i saw ur tag again..
i'll delete..hahaha..
so go on...be A pengecut n only hide behind ur computer screen and hatetag me..
your comment actually isnt needed here..
Why be a kaypo n read n then comment?
Anyone ask for ur opinion?No kan?
So Get Lost Biatch!

2009-10-10T15:25:00.002+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Yeay!attachment is finally overrrrrr!!!!!!!

Part of me are jumping up & down..but e other part of me...

was feeling sadd:(

You know why??

i miss everything!

hurhur...

This morning,when i woke up,

i receive msg frm one of the patients,

greeting me good morning...!aww!

n i miss her too!

yes,yest was my last day..

n e patients refused to let me go..

haha,one of e patient also say she wanna tie me up so that i cant go home...

heees~!haha

cute u noee!

Since yesterday was my last day,some were sad..

n i miss greeting them in e morning..

the young,the old...

some of e relative too..

so one of e patients even exchange number n facebook.!

that kakak...

hehe,sempat ehk?!

So yeah...

i simply miss everything about it..

The friendly Assistant nurse,

the cute nenek...

the cute patients,

the breakfast baked waffle in e canteen...

simply seeing e smile & the simple thank you from everyone..

to just wearing e uniform!

*i just dunno why but i'm always happy when i wore my uniform!*

aww...

So yeah...

yesterday,

We started off e day as usual..

Took 855 to work...

alight at the fire station there,

n again..when we walk past..

ada lah berbunyi2...

will miss that!

haha!

kidding!

So yeah...since we were early,

we decide to buy n eat icecream!!

yeay!

So i chose Mango icecream with cone.!

n e other 2 belik lain..

the auntie ehk...k.k.wont say more..for us to be happy about..not for u to noe..heheh!

hurhur...

So yeah...

then reach work,greeted everyone..Okay,bedek!

haha...repeat uh..

*greeted almost every1!

n then we gave them our last day gift,

the Ferero Roche,the cute piglet n the thank you card for being patient wif uss...

n teaching us n being patience wif us..!

yeay!

So...the day when well..

At the very last time,i step out of e ward..

i say to myselff...

this isnt e final goodbye..

i'll be back..

chewah2!

hahahhaha...

Ohya...

i've submitted e form for sponsorship wif them.

Not sure if i get it or not..

i'm 50/50 of getting it..

submitted my result...n forms..

they alrd called up for interview next week..

but not sure if i'll breeze through...

pray for me...

Thanks alottt...

if not...i'll just try other hospitall...

yeay!

toodles!i guess thats all for today!

I nk siap2 to go grandma house at marine parade aka sebelah eastcoast park..

hopefully they go laut again!

yeay!

Mum say she's gonna fetch me at 4.30 pm..

she's driving there...

n till now..i havent siap2...

time check:4pm..

hurhur...

n to my dearest Namira,

thanks alot dearest!

No words can describe how thankful i am to have a fren like u!

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-10-03T15:07:00.003+08:00

I'm totally shagged..this picture prove it all!

Namira:"Lepas tu kan,dia terus diam..."

Liana:"ehk!Serious!abeh lepas tu?"

Namira:"Sof...look at this picture"

Sofia:*haha*

Namira:"ehk!she's mine!"

Sofia:"Ya rite!"

Namira:"omfg!look at this pic sofia!"

Namira & her two bodyguard...!

And...so what i've said is right..

I really go jalan raya wif my Nurse Uniform..

sedih per!

Hahaha!First house,i visit...

I'm still wearing my Nurse uniform...

& every1 was like...

Ehk..ni sape pulak...!

hahahha..

then change at their house cos tak sempat nak change & was rushing to meet them at their house...!hahaha..

i was like travelling from Alexandra hospital to Bedok to meet namira & then to hougang i think to meet the rest at shaf 's house..

So ya..it certainly was an unforgettable day for sofia as alot of unlucky things stike on her..

nvm sofia,next yr it will be much better for u....!

So ya basically,i woke up at 5am yest all the way to 12 midnite,i didnt have much rest as i was outside...Doing attachment & then after that straight to jalan raya..!

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

2009-10-01T22:41:00.001+08:00

Hari Raya picture @ my uncle/auntie house..
Me,Sis & grandma..
Hahaha...Randomness!

So ya....
today..work was fun...
except the fact that i didnt have enough sleep as i sleep at 2am & i had to wake up at 4am..
no good!
Well...so morning shift...
basically the usual rush,did my first ever NGtube feeding for the first time on human & not the school dummy...yeah..with the help of my clinical instructor..even though i was shaky bu i manage to pass it off...did 2 of the patient..yeay!now i know...
So ya...There was tis 1 patient..
She was super cuteee!
arnd the age 50-60 yrs old..
So this is what happen on the very 1st time i greet her tis morning..
The first thing she ever said was..
"You very pretty ehk...you have bf alrd?"
so i said yup..
Then she asked,when i'm gonna get married...
LOL!told he i wanna finish my studies first..n bla3 n i help her...
& she told me i have a big heart*ehem**Ehem*
& she brabbles about how lucky my boyfriend was to have a gf like me"...
so ya...thanks her & i went off the ward..
30 mins later...
i came back since she called for help..
She asked me again ..
"girl,wats ur name ehk?
You very pretty ehk...You got Bf alrd?
so..again i answered..
yup2..
& she asked again.."when u getting married?"
So..i answered her the same answer as i did previously...
so then...after helping her wif the stuff...
i went off to do some charting...
2 hours later...
i came back to do some charting & checking..
& she called me again..
"nurse2!"
so came to her,help her some stuff...
n then...
Again...
She asked the same question..
LOL!
cutelah this auntie!
but she's very very nice..!
i like!

LOL!
thats all for today!
Other than that..
nothing exciting today...
My Leg felt as though is gonna break into half..
I have 4 more hours to sleep today..
Adiosaa!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

2009-10-01T01:36:00.003+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Happy 1 year 4month anniversary sayang!

*eventhough its a very hard time but sweet*

Your b'day coming soon...

Hmm....i'm planning on what to do..

I guess we made the history of our own!

Lets break the record bb!

we've broke whatever record there is..

ily!

p.s:erm,where is Nee Soon camp?

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

STUCK WITH EACH OTHER

that you're gonna get you somethin better,but you know that we're in this forever,

and you can - think you can walk out, even with your doubts,

but you know that we're in this together,

you can try to push me from you, nothing you do will keep us a part.

Chorus:

cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,baby,

we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) -

ain't nothin you can do about it,it's been too long, it's been too strong -

cause we belong here,baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)-

stuck in love with each other (stuck in love with each other)

Akon:

now i can say that i would not care, if you were not there,

tell myself that i'll be fine without ya, but i would die if i was not around ya,

and i can try to convince you i don't need to be with you,

but my only thoughts are thoughts about ya,what can i do, love is like glue.

there's no way to .. tear us a part.

(Chorus)

there's nothing i'd rather do, than to sit with you forever -

can't think of nothin better than to be stuck with you.

cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,baby,

we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) -

ain't nothin we can do about itcause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) -

ain't nothin i can do about itit's been too long, it's been too strong -

yes, we belong here,baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)

- stuck in love with each other (stuck in love with each other)

cause it's too late,

there's no escape, might as well face it,baby,

we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) -

ain't nothin i can do about it

it's been too long, it's been too strong -

yes, we belong here,baby,

we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)-

stuck in love with each other (stuck in love with each other)

Shontelle:

ain't nothin gonna stop me and you (eh)

cause you know we just stuck like glue (eh)ain't nothin we can do,

we stuck in love with each other!

This song is dedicated for me & you..

Cos we are simply stuck with each other..

no matter what i wanna do...

we will still be stuck with each other..!

2009-09-29T02:05:00.003+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

I'M FREAKING PARANOID!!!

BLOGGGGGGGGERRR!aargghh!

i lose out all the saved templates/blog add/beautiful decoration

on the previous skin!

so peeeppss,if u step in here,please kindly leave ur blog add again,so i can add/re-add u..

Thanksss a millionn!

ok....lets stop being paranoid...

for 1 min...

today...attachment...it was rocking man!

i love the peep that work today!

surprisingly,

receive quite alot of complement which was unexpected....

awww...!

so sweet of the patient/staff!

Lets just say...i'll love my uniform,Lets rock it bebeh!

*eventhough she caught me once,till she caught me again;)*

&....sadly...

today i forgot to wear a SOCK to work..

muahaha..how is that possible,i dunno!

ok.........i dunno what to say already..

cos right now i'm being superrr paranoid with losing my template,

that i'm just too speechless to say anything!

Well...for now...i'm gonna stick with this skin..

but will keep on changing till i get the right One!

Ohya..

Just now i was surprise with a message from my buyer who yest bought from me the brownies,

She even sms me in CAPITAL letter & all exclamation,

cakap my brownies freaking nice,YEAYY!!!

*her message lifted my mood high up & up!*

That message is the highlight of the day!

she's the 1st outside buyer that complement,happyy banget!

Cos selama ni,since there's no comment from others about the brownies,i was like wondering what does the brownies taste like,

Well...it actually up to a person taste lah kan..

it might be nice to some peeps,not nice to some others..maybe..

Thanks to my dad who always criticise on everything i did myself..

hurhur!

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-09-24T23:42:00.002+08:00

-i love my blue eyes lens!-

Raya Vs Attachment

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Hello Babies!

Gonna do a short update for now..

Its Hari Raya month but sadly...i have to challenge it with attachment at Alexandra

Hospital.Was thinking of signing bond there...but..i'm thinking very hard.!

Still deciding between AH & TTSH..

Ohya!btw

I've Gotten My result..& i was shocked cos...

it turn out way better then wat i expected!

I was thinking i'm gonna fail alot of subject..

but surprisingly..I pass all!

EVEN MANDARIN!!

yes,the paper that i main hentam saje...

& so...

today was the 3rd day of attachment..

i did almost vomit*this part tak perlu ehk...:p*

there's a new malay patient admitted pat my tempat & i'm happy ada kwn untuk bobal.

Yesterday...

i sesat.untuk pergi canteen.

Tak tau pergi..kesian kan?

& so i'm getting hanged of what to do..

Today afternoon shift..

then at 3plus...there isnt much for me to do..i was just walking around the area..

macam nak tido pun ade..

kesian ehk me?

i'm the only budak dari my class untuk dihantar ke AH...

budak Nyp year 1 attachment cume ade 3 orang jek jaga my ward..

oklah..now my kaki so the penat..

i might not be updating much on weekdays now..

i think only on weekends jek..

Ok...selamat jalan raya dan selamat malam!

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-09-21T03:33:00.001+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!

yeayy!ok...i'm beat!

too much jalan raya already..

might be going out wif bbylove tomorrow aka later..

camat raya!!weee~!

Ohnoo!!

1 more day till attachment at Alexandra Hospital!

cheer up!

gotta sleep now..

Goodnight aka Good morning!!

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-09-20T00:31:00.003+08:00

The Angelic side of me..hehe.. ;)

pic taken yesterday!;p
31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Hello babies!
weee~
i'm here to wish all Muslim out there,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!
Please forgive all the mistake that i've done,
if i ever hurt your feeling,scolded you without a reason*rarely*
lost my mood out of a sudden,made you guys angry..or just any sins that i've done to you all..
to all my friends,whom sometimes u feel as though i'm ignoring u,
nope2!
deeply in my heart,i love you guys!
PLEASE...forgive me..!

For my Besties since sec school,

you know i love you guys so much!

I cant wait for the SLEEPOVER! to happen soon!

yes2,i'm finding a date for us!wee~~!

For my loved Nyp friends,

i love you guys too!you guys are my drug to happiness,

you guys never fail to make me laugh & cheer up my day no matter what!

i hope you guys will go through attachment or werk or holidays as enjoyable as ever.

WE ALL MUST JALAN RAYA SAMA2 tau!!!

For my beloved sista,nichakitty

i miss you!

Lets go jalan raya again wif ur friends like last year again!

Fate & friends!

hehehe

To my beloved kak nasreen,

I'm really really touched by ur caringness,

u always know when i need a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear,

& never fails to give advice!

You are seriously like a sister,a bestfriend to me!

I'm really really glad that i've gotten to know you.

i miss you too!

Hari Raya Jangan Lupa Datang My Rumah!

Ok...& to the rest whom i may have forgotten to mention,

it doesnt meant i totally forgot u guys,

i love you guys too!

Ok...on another note..
You guys might be wondering why i suddenly wear tudung...
heheheh..
well...its just another volunteering work that i've done..
On friday!
this time,me & Namira decide to wear tudung..
yes!Me..in...tudung...!
Well..i feel a lil weird but they say i look sweet..
Aww..
but still feel weird!
So yes..for the 1st time this year,i wear tudung!
Haha...the last time i remembered wearing it was Last year when i go religious class..ofcourse kena pakai tudung..hehehe!
k.k.
so back to the story
I wear it from home but in e train i feel a lil awkward cos its my first time out i travel far wif it.
So we have to meet at Aljunied,so reach there..
waited for namira,then we proceed to meet the rest of the Pertapis Youth members..
Then we all made our way to the Pertapis halfhouse which is our checkpoint..
& then each of us were grouped.
Me,namira & two of our new friends,
was grouped together & our mission was to collect derma for TAA at masjid sultan..
We were sent thru & fro by all the kind malay taxi driver..
While the rest of the Pertapis youth was also grouped & sent to different Masjid in singapore..
Alot of interesting thing happen while i'm collecting the donation & doing volunteering..
such as 2t differen guys which asked for my number at different timing,
one of them is the Pertapis youth & the other one is a malay guy who worked at the masjid i think*which cos me to become so the tak kena gaya!
*NAMIRA,you better dun laugh at me ehk;p*
the ya..after the collecting donation thingy,me,namira,our two new fren,& some of the guys went to Pertapis Headquarter to do some scrubbing for the songkok for anak2 yatim i think..
After the whole thing ended,me,namira & Umairah*the new friend* we went to jalan2 at Geylang bazaar first,to buy my ramli burger & our chendol & namira kebab!
Then after that...
went our separate ways...
I was suppose to go to my grandma house at Marine Parade,
So...after a long search for the bus No.13
Manage to have found it & then reach Grandma house sweet2 ard 6.30.
Grandma was super shocked to see me in tudung & as usual...
as a grandma,she say...kan gini lagi lawa dan manis...-_-"
well...normal for her as she had always wanted me to wear a tudung..
but sadly..it was just one day...or maybe more in future..
So ya..brought along my school nurse uniform which i actually intended to get it altered..& yes..
my kind nenek kindly offered to help me alter it..Am very happy with the result of the alteration but sadly...
its just one uniform that i brought..haha..
Nvm..
So ya..my beloved nenek always know my fav food!
She always cooked for me
SOTONG MASAK HITAM & KUAH RESAM!
whenever i come!
fuuh!!finger licking!
& its hubbylove fav food to,sotong!
but he didnt come lah..

So waited for sis to arrive..then we all buka together..
then after ard a lil later i suddenly feel the tiredness..
& sleep ligtly,but in then end,since it was alrd late at night..
Me & sis decide to just sleepover!
So yeahh~~!

Then this morning,came back home earlier then sis
baked for a customer her brownie..then afternoon meet customer..
Then i went back to chongpang to do eyebrow trimming/threading..
cos only 5 bucks
which cos me so much pain,cried,hehe..but..Pain is Beauty
I love the result!
Its much2 neaterr!

So yeah...after that my nenek sedare decide to blanje me n family makan..& kesian my dad,he drive us all the way to this one place which is popular for its Bak Ku Teh beef version,found out in the end,it was CLOSE.sad or what!So we ended up buka at teh tarik but the food nice lah!
Was feeling sad when i heard the takbir raya...& i missed my fav atuk who had passed away in 2000..haish..

So after that dad sent us to mum's house,
helped her around the house..
She kindly gave me another HOT PINK victoria secret bag!
yeay!she know i love it!my fav brand!
Might be using it on the new term,it fits my Pink Laptop too!
then she also borrowed me her shiny silver victoria secret bag for raya..yeay!
Then when i was at mummy's house..i received a msg from dear..
about him asking where i am & what time i'll be coming home..
& that msg i received ard 8+/9pm like that..
i asked him why..he told me he missed me so much..
& so i asked him what he's doing..
he say he's under my blk waiting for me to go home so that he can
catch a glimpse of me..
i told him,dangerous sikit cos my dad might be sitting outside,also i might be coming home late..but he say he dun care & will wait for me no matter what cos he really really miss me damn alot n he say how long he wait determine how much deep he love me!
i thought he was just kidding
but to my surprised,when i reach home at ard 11+ pm close to 12am..
He was still there under my blk,& smiled at me!
So luckily my dad had yet to reach home cos he was sending my nenek sedare home...
& so i go meet him jap..
Then when i was talking to him,he just look at me deeply...without saying a word
& then thanks god for even letting him meet me eventhough its just a few minutes..
i was melting inside seeing how much he cared for me..aww!
then after a few mins,i need to go home,he too then go home..
he then msged me
"i luv you dear,seeing you in person is more then enough for me!"
then i msged him...
He's like the Romeo pulak...
n he replied,
"romeo will always wait for his juliet..
cos he loves her deeply...
lyke how i love u.."
awww...

So ya..thats all for today...
i guess..i should be off to get my beauty sleep now..
& YEAYY!!!BESOK DAH RAYA!!

YOURS SINCERELY,
kiki anela beaudelaire

2009-09-17T14:53:00.003+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Shoulder To Cry On (Ver 2002) - Tommy Page
This song is really touching & motivating..especially when you feel like giving up & no one is there to lend you a shoulder to cry on.

Dedicated to all my friends who have problems,
regardless its relationship,family,friends,surrounding,werk..
& need a shoulder to cry on..
I'll be there for u..through this song..
Just listen to it..
You a re not alone to face all that you are juggling.

A shoulder to cry on
by:Tommy page

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take
you down,
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you
by your side,

And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone, cause I'll be there.

All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like
There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on
Side by side,
With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
you won't be alone cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
when the whole world's gone
you won't be alone
cause I'll be there!

And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on....

2009-09-17T02:59:00.002+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Hello babies!
yeay!My chocolate+rasberry+strawberry taste/smell customised lipbalm had arrived!
woohoo!Didnt expect the colours to be exactly like the way i wanted,but it did!
yeay!Gonna order more of it soon!
its smells so yummy!
*rub hands together wif glee*

-pictures credit to the blogshop-
The flavours?
Mango/rasberry/strawberry/peach/green apple/grape/chocolate/orange/vanilla
andand...!
I'm waiting for my eyeshimmers to arrive!
hope it arrive before raya!
Alrd had white,black,brown,silver/grey,purple,*cuming-blue & pink*,*ordering soon:Red & green!
Well,i simply love the eyeshimmers/eyeshadows as it have been receiving many complements from it...!
Whoever wants to order eyeshimmers or customised lipbalm,drop me a tag or email k?
I'll help you with it:))
Cos i might be doing sprees on the eyeshimmer!
p.s:Each stick cos less than 2 bucks!
Outide Shop sells ard $4.50-$7 per stick!
i've surveyed alot of shop that sell the same exact stick!
Hurhur!
K.k..enough of makeup stuff!

TODAY was such A BITCH!
or shall i say...this month is such a bad luck month!
Nothing goes right!
Its badluck everywhere!
Especially today when i had a near death experience!
sssssuuppid bus!
Well..this is what happen...
So this evening..it was raining heavily...
& sadly i have to go to work...
So while crossing the road
i have to stand in e middle lane while waiting for the road to clear...
I noticed a big puddle of water just below me...
So i was praying in my heart that no car will speed fast or i'll be Splashed!
But Luck wasnt siding me..as i saw an 812/800 bus coming & its like super fast..
SO i wanted to avoid being splashed,so i took a step backward without realising that actually the road behind me wasnt cleared as what i thought...
*but i last seen it,it was super clear as in..there's no car*
& to my Horror..THERE'S AN ONCUMING CAR HEADING TOWARDS MY ME!
But i was super lucky as the car wasnt being drove fast & manage to stop to avoid hitting me!!
*THANKS GOD!**BERSYUKUR KEPADA ALLAH!AMIN!*
The result was that,i was still being SPLASHED by the puddle of water because of the bus which drove very fast..but i was still lucky to be alive!
Then...i think the rest of the driver behind saw the incident & being super kind enough to try to avoid splashing me by driving their car super slow!
& i really meant super slow just to avoid splashing me!
I really wanna thank all the drivers sei!
SO after that incident,i was in a state of shock.
So ya...
then after i reach work,
about 2 hours later,while i was making a Mocha Frappucino
for one of my customer,
so i opened the blender,& shake it a little and then i put it down,
skalik!
THE MOCHA FRAP like *PLOP!!* & some of it like jumps out of the the blender & Splashed onto my head & CLEAN WHITE POLO T!
surprisingly,None of it falls onto my apron!
It just *explode* onto my clean hair/face & white shirt!
Ohmy!!
What luck..!:(
Haish!
SAD OR WHAT!HURHUR
:'(
klah..i guess thats all for today..
I'm having a major headache right now...
ohwait!
I guess sis is having all my goodluck!
because,SHE'S ONE OF THE 10 winner TO WIN $700 Choice voucher worth oF SHOP & SAVE/GIANT/711/COLD STORAGE !!
$700 sia!!!
In the "count the number of lemon contest" by shop & save/Cold storage!
Gerek or what??!!
BUT sadly...
I'm having all the badlucks!:((
I'm superr sad...haishh!!
Goodluck,Please come back to me dear!
I really need you!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki ANela Beaudelaire

2009-09-15T04:41:00.004+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)
ANOTHER LAUNCHED OF MY BLOGSHOP!
*this is what bored people do...!hehehe*
YEAY!this time it sells...

CUSTOMISED BROWNIES!
CLICK THIS LINK BELOW:
www.browniesareloved.blogspot.com
CLICK ON THE LINK!
Currently,i think,its e only blogshop that sells customised brownies!
yeay!
ANOTHER BLOGHOP Of mine SELLING INSTOCK:
www.cutebabyshopper.blogspot.com

Support Both aite;)
wee~~~!

YOURS SINCERELY,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-09-15T02:53:00.000+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)
I'm sorry love...
i guess..
i should have appreciated you more..
i miss you.
but...
dunno why this feeling always arrive..
this bugging feeling..
i hate it..
i wish it never exist..
why does my heart always have to played my feelings..
it always cheats on me..
it always gave me fake feelings..
yes..its only within me & myself..
i've played up my own heart..
i cheated on my own feeling...
i love to create fake feelings...
I'm not a good girl...neither was i a bad girl..
i dun wish to break other heart,but i also dont wish to break mine..
but how?
When i see how much a girl love a guy..
i envy her..
i just dunno why..
i know hubby love me so much..
i do love him too..
sometimes its a little too overload till i myself am shocked
but sometimes...
it just feel so....Neutral?
I love to see pictures of other couples..
seein how sweet they are together..
sometimes i see myself in them...but sometimes i just have to envy them..
*so if you happen to see me viewing ur facebook or friendster or blog,dont mind me..i'm just visualising myself*
cos they seems perfect together..like their love are balance..
but mine?
its like a boat..
rocking up & down..
like a roller coaster..
sometimes a little too much till i cant breathe..
but sometimes...
its just..........going down.too fast.
I know its not normal..
I do feel guilty sometimes.
Sometimes i really hate him...
but at the same time...
i really dun want to lose him..
haish...why am i always having weird feelings in me??
cant someone just give me a normal feeling like what other couples are feeling??
hubby..i love you..but at the same time..i hate you for not being able to be by my side most of the time because you have Ns.
haish..

Love,kiki anela beaudelaire

2009-09-13T17:17:00.002+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started.

Hello babies & dearies!
its seems like i havent been replying to the tags,aww!sorry dearest,i baca jek,but never reply..
Nvm,i'll reply soon!
Ok2,back..
You know why i have been missing this few days?
its because of the Biggest event for my STAGE ART..!
yes,the Production that all the people & department in stage art have been working hard for!

and yes.Finally the Production is OVER!
IT WAS SUCCESSFUL!!
i feel proud seeing the people(actors,dancers,usherer), i've makeup,laid my arts on their faces & hair...

& this is andy's younger brother who is loved by all..cute right?

Makeup artist/actors running about everywhere to do quick touchups..

teasing the hair & all..
,on stage & it turns out well!
Congrats to the actors & dancers for doing a great job!
and the moments when we walk on stage & they say...
"this is the makeup artistes that have created & done the actors/dancers hair & makaeup.."
aww!sucha heartfelt moment!
bringing out their character & all..

& the moments they say...
"eventhough they are just year 1,
their makeups was awesome!"
aww!
feel so proud of it..!
chewah2!

hahaha..whatever it is...
THE STAGE ART PRODUCTION IS FINALLY OVER!
no more intensive training till late...

no more few hours of sleep...
no more waking up in the morning to rush off to school..
no more of the crazy moments in the makeup room..

no more crazy photo taking in the makeup room..-from the mirror especially!!*LOL!*

MORE REST!

yeay!
&
BABYLOVE!!!!
I really am surprise to see you turn up to support me while all my friends cant make it!
i never thought that you will attend such event..
but you prove me wrong!
You were the only one who came..
as you know how important this has been for me!
i swear you were super sweet!
and even surprise me with a box of FERERO ROCHE!!!
my fav chocolate!!
aww!

That was the sweetest thing ever!
*hugshugs*kisskiss!*
ILYILY!
& also..thanks for the Meals..
& the taxi rides cos you know i'm a little worn out..!
SO ya...after the produtions,bbylove & me went to AMKHUB,
to watch FINAL DESTINATION 3D!
k.k..i know we are a little ketinggalan but we never seems to catch a good timing till yest!
Ber-iya2 nak pakai the 3D spec,but starting of the movie alrd,i keep on taking it out & also closing my eyes!
too gory for me!urrgh!Hahaha!spoiler uh!LOL!the 3D is too much for me!hahahah
then we went to have our dinner,
bbylove blanja-ed me..he love stuffing me
thanks love..!
then we jalan2 ard there,
bought a few stuff here & there...
then we go to our favourite place..spend our time there..
He massage me as i complain of tiredness..
soo switt macam sugar..!
so that was it..
Had a total great day!!

Shikin love yazri..

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-09-07T03:38:00.000+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Hello dearies...
you know what?
i'm sleepy...but i wanna blog...
-_-"
doesnt make sense ehk?
ahahah..
Ok...
So how was the yest & today..
Yest.was.shit.
shit.happen.
i.shud.have followed.my.strong.instinct.
bbylove.too!he had e instince,he brushed it off also like me..haish.
Well...it alrd happen.
I really wont wanna talk about it here.
aaarghh!till now i feel weird..
bbylove too..!
i think frm now,someone will hate me now..
it happen twice alrd.
in behalf of me &bbylove,
we're sorry.
but dun think bukan2 k?
we didnt do anything..
I shall skip the topic now,better not talk about it..
if you know,keep to urself k?
thanks..
So ya..about today..
I was woken up in e morning wif sis forcing me to bangun...
since she wanted me to accompany her cut hair..
so i ikot..n i also cut my hair..
layered..
i somehow like it..somehow not..
its undecided..
i dunno whether it suits me or nt...
hahaha...
then after go chongpang,go home jap,
dad tukar baju & siap2,
we all go Geylang to find baju raya...
& coincidently,this year,my family theme will be black & white..
Bro & sis-white
Dad & Maid-black
Me-Black & white mix *see!i'm e neutral one!*
haha...mine i bought kebaya..i love the top so much..its white.
but the kain..so batik2,not really into it though..
so since i really love the top,i just bought that set..
*i was planning to wear wif another bottom*
or after a few days raya,i'll just wear it wif black pants & heels..
tested..& it looks....sweet but cool?
hahaha
wait2,i have Pink kebaya too that my nenek had jahit for me...
so...hmm..
jalan2 at geylang,observed alot of different behaviours,the way the seller tried to attract peeps attention to their store,how people behave...
the environment...
then skalik jalan2,bought e food item,ter-bump into kak nas..*she macam terkejot gituk!*
ahhahaha...& her family..
then after that trained home wif family...a few mins after reach home terus dah buka..
& today dad spend a total of $400++ just for e hari raya things..tsk3
i still missed out on the DENGDENG!
plan to go this sat after my production..
bbylove wanted to catch a 3d movie,
he had alot of plan in his mind alrd..!
then i want to drag him to geylang*yeay!*so i cn buy my dengdeng.
Ohya!
i gotten 2 free ticket for it..
The major event for the year for Stage Art..
& me & the makeup artist team be doing the makeups for the actors...
This week will be the intensive training week to buck up on our skills to do the special effect on face..
Yest..i was told to do the makeup character for dirtied civiliant in the war,& also the makeup for the doctor..
we'll be doing the alot other character too...but i'm still a lil nervous to makeup their face..
hahaha..scared it doesnt look like what the character suppose to be..
& the production,we'll be assigned to do which character...& i was hoping,i'll get the dirtied civiliant or the soldier..at least..its easier..
just messed up their face..
hahaha..
Yest was also our photoshoot..
Really am looking forward for the major event,this saturday,12 sept..!

Ohya!Monday,i'll have to work at the Saf army openhouse event..
since starbuck is gonna setup a booth..there..i think lah..or sumthing close to tat..
i'm not sure..what i know is that i'm werking at 3pm onwards.!
but...
I DUNNO HOW TO GET THERE!damn!:(
well..i guess thats all for today..
currently,i miss bbylove so much.!
yest,i told him about my past..*the crush on him*
finally he know what happen..haaha!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki anela beaudelaire

2009-09-04T16:23:00.000+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Taylor Swift:LOVE STORY

we were both young when i first saw you
i close my eyes
and the flashback starts
im standing there
on a balcony of summer air

see the lights,
see the party the ball gowns
i see you make your way through the crowd
you say hello
little did i know

that you were romeo you were throwing pebbles
and my daddy said stay away from juliet
and i was crying on the staircase
begging you please don’t go, and i said

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
i’ll be waiting all theres left to do is run
you’ll be the prince and i’ll be the princess
its a love story baby just say yes

so i sneak out to the garden to see you
we keep quiet because we’re dead if they know
so close your eyes
lets keep this down for a little while
cause you were romeo i was a scarlet letter
and my daddy said stay away from juliet
but you were everything to me
and i was begging you please don’t go and i said

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
i’ll be waiting all theres left to do is run
you be the prince and i’ll be the princess
its a love story baby just say yes

romeo save me, don’t try to tell me how it feels
this love is difficult, but its so real
don’t be afraid we’ll make it out of this mess
its a love story baby just say yes,

Oh, oh

I got tired of waiting
wondering if you were ever coming around
my faith in you was fading
when i met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

romeo save me i’ve been feeling so alone
i keep waiting for you but you never come
is this in my head, i don’t know what to think
he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

marry me juliet you’ll never have to be alone
i love you and thats all I really know
i talked to your dad you’ll pick out the white dress
its a love story baby just say yes
oh, oh, yes
we were still young when i first saw you

~somehow bbylove,my lovestory is similar
to this except that it wasnt at a party &
& the ending had yet to come~
The rest,its totally true!the balcony,the sneak out,the daddy's part,the crying~
hahaha..Its a lovestory..baby just say yes!

2009-09-04T04:20:00.002+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Love,
i really need you right now..
i just felt alone without you..
like this angel crying...without her partner..
If only you know..how deep my love for you..
Love...
if only you know,
how my heart melted..when you called me soulmate..
talking about us..about the future..
about working hard to collect money for our future..
About slowly planning about how you wanted our life
together..
Our future children..
our wish..
Love...
Did you know..
Somehow my little voice in me tell me...
that your my soulmate..
my other half..
the one that i'm looking for..
you're the One i wanted...
somehow..
every little sacrifices that you do..
makes a big different in me..
it touches my heart..
everytime you hold my hand...
kiss my forehead..
& looking deep into my eyes with those big brown eyes..
those innocent eyes..
it just makes my heart skip twice..
how i wish...
i could hug you right now...
& never let go..
bbylove,you have made a big difference in me..
I've let my soul out for you...
& the trust that you have for me..
bbylove,i'll try my very best to never to break your trust..
the care that you showed me..
worrying sick about me going home late at night..
those advises...
I know there will never be another guy like you...
& you're e sweetest addiction that i had..
the best chocolate...for making me love-sick..
the best blanket...for comforting me when i'm in need..
the best drug...that never risk my health..
I just want you to be right by my side..
I love you hubby..you're my soulmate,yazri..

-love,wifey-

2009-09-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)
& yesterday...
i think...
I sisha-ed a little bit too much!
& drive bbylove a lil bit angry cos i went back late!
sorry bbylove!

but..
whatever it is..
LETS GO SISHA-ing AGAIN!
yesterday was wif my storemates& manager since we had storemeeting aka outing!
SISHA-ing!
Nyp mates,Lets go sisha!!

2009-08-31T02:14:00.005+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)
HAPPY 1 year 3 monthsary!
& with that..I LOVE YOU.!
Bbylove,thanks for the chocolate that you give,the sneaky kisses in the bus.
I love it!You know,life without you meants nothing...
& i meant it so..
Every little things that you did makes me love you more...
I'm glad we've come this far..
bbylove,i'm more then speechless when you look me in the eyes & say i love you.
It just melts me...& those intense split moments when we both look deeply in each other eyes..
Its just so special!Magical!
Let it be our little fairytale when there's only you & me.ily..

Ok...back to today..
The stories of my life...
Unfold...

So this morning or shall i say Afternoon...
I was woken up by my grandma calling on the phone..
Asking me whether i'm coming over her house today..
Me...being still very blur2 sotong when i woke up,asked her,
what day is today...what time izit..n all..haha..
Ok...!so tak perlu!-_-"
hehe!
Then i suddenly remembered that i have promised to come over house today..
so ya..cannot break promise,i say yes..
Then sms-ed bbylove asking him whether he wanna follow me to grandma house or not..
cos my atuk was eager to invite him over..!haha
cute!
then bbylove gave me a good reply and decide to accompany me to grandma house over at marine parade..
Before i go over to grandma house,i decide to bake for her a brownie..
as her birthday last monday,to celebrate a belated birthday cos on her birthday i wasnt free..
So this is the result...

So yeah...
Eventhough babylove had to book in tonight,he still set some time aside to accompany me..
*hugs*
then we met at my grandma house cos apparently i need to meetup with a buyer at bugis so i
took the mrt to bugis then bedok while bbylove took 853.
then...i reach first,just in time for breaking fast while bbylove still was on his way..
cian dia..puase2 tapi tak sempat untuk buka on time...
alala...
So i reach 1st,gave the brownie to grandma,
and then break fast wif grandma..
while my atuk..being super sweet,
he kept on insisted he wanted to wait & eat wif bbylove!
Aww..he likes hubby!yeay!
So yeah..i ate 1st...then tried on my baju raya..
alter2 little bit..
then bbylove arrive..
Then both of them buka together & atuk kept on talking to bbylove..
but nevermind..
Bonding tu namanya!
then after that ard 9 plus..
Bbylove & i decide to make a move as i scared later he'll be late for book in..

BBylove & i walk to the bus n both of us took the same bus to tampines.
Inside the bus,he keep on sneaking kiss..
then he check hp for sumthing & then..
thats when he suddenly ask me...
"b,hari 17/7/08 to hari apa?"
i being a lil bit lost & blur,
i look at my handphone calendar
and say..
"hari thursday.."
then he replied..
"bukan!i meant..what day isit,hints:our first....."
me being super forgetful ask him back,
"our first apa sei??!"
*insert blur face*
then he say to me..
"takkan u lupa sei!!!!11.19pm or 11:39pm...?"
*sad...*
my reply:
"ntah!i STM lah b...sorry!"
then his reply:
"Its the time when we had our first kiss lah dear!
u yang tulis dalam buku u,*he kidnapped my diary btw*
u yang lupa!"
my reply:
"ohya!a'ah lah!!"
aww...!
he can still remember the date & time while me?
i dont remember a single thing!
Blame it on my STM!
& then suddenly out of the blues,
bbylove gave me the chocolates...yeay!
and then i ask him
"B!how long is ur longest relationship?
and his reply was..
"This is the longest relationship for me...!
and will be forever"
aww...

Eventhough today we only get to meet & spend time at my grandma house till in the bus to tampines,
i feel like we had the time of our life..
Every single minute was so special..
Especially those time in the bus..
Every minute was so special that i dont wish to end..
but sadly..
we have to part..:(

So ya...
took 969 home..
and rested..thats the end of the stories for today..
I love you dear & will forever will..

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-30T01:45:00.003+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Ok...1stly,

About yesterday story*outings @ fareast wif e giler* & pictures will be uploaded when i have the time aite?:)

Kalau tak sabar sangat,do check the pictures at my Facebook.

Add me kalau belum add!:)

Ok..

About today...

Yes!today i finally go again for makeup practice,but today we dont do much but instead we do the clothing & practice on the special effect of the face for the upcoming Production For Stage Arts Drama*makeup department aka i'm one of them,all involve do the makeup,woohoo!tak sabar*

On the 12th September!Do come down!*chey chey,promoting*

Tadi they just did the soldier face painting,n next 2 weeks,more intensive training on how to do bruises & all...for the effects on the drama peeps!*

For the 7th -11th,its the intensive training for the makeups & all!

Must remember to make myself free!

12th september will be the big day for all the stage art department especially e drama,!

N makeup,n all the 2 other departments in stage art!

Ok2,enough of that,next topic,

Then after practice,Me& namira& sophia ber gile2 sing our way along the way to Mrt.

& was planning of our future investment,an a name!

haha!namira kindly followed me to bedok bakery shop again to buy stuff for the brownie,etc icing,n all that & she sweetly help me bwk kan my items when i carik barang,thanks Nams!

Ok.Next Topic!

So apparently,today i was left alone at home

because i have a doctor apptment for Hep B immunisation 2 jap today at ard 7+ Pm

as every1 leave to visit my nenek @ TTSH

So,Hubbylove was sweet enough to teman me for Breaking-Fast

*if not i have to berbuka puasa alone :( *

& to accompany me to the clinic to get my jab.

And he,knowing that i penakut besar wif jarum,

he accompany me till the doctor room,

& held his hand for me to hold while i was

injected..n allowed me to gigit if i'm too scared..

aww!

which boyfie would do that for his gfs?

but seriously,macam touch jugak uh on even this simplest thing done!

*i was somehow shivering cos i heard the 2nd jab is much painful than 1st but the doc laugh at me!-sad face-*

& indeed,the jab is much more painful than 1st one,1st jab tak rasa sei the jabs.

2nd jab ni

my hand terus Numb skejap,

& when the doc insert the needle,i swear i can feel the hep B insulin flowing through from the needle to my skin n vein...*close eye*

Then bbylove carried my stuff except for my bag

n yeah..

But Seriously,today bbylove looks extra hot & charming,

i dont know why,maybe its because of his hair?

*his hair have grown longer & he gel-ed it all up*

the way he wear today?i dont know..but ya..

Couldnt take my eyes off him!

& he's extra manja today!

n he even sempat carried me!hahah!

I still remember yesterday,

he msg-ed me saying he's outside my house

& i ask him what's his doing near my house..

*since he know i cant keluar malam*

his answer was...

"Just wanna see you from a distance..

Cos i miss you dear..

No 1 has ever luv sum1 as much as i do to you.."

Double AWWW!

But seriously,

I seriously cant explain this feeling in my heart,

its just so speechless,so perfect!

i feel so comfortable wif you hubbylove,

i dont even know what is life without you!

Eventhough we dont really get to meet each other often,

We still had our bond..

& with Tomorow,it marks our 1 year 3 month Anniversary.!

I hope we can last long together as i can already envision you & me together,pushing our lil babies in the prams..& still we remain the happiest couple ever!

If it wasnt for your forgiving & never wanna pick a fight attitude,we will never be here still standing together.

Thanks Love!

Sometimes i do admit that i might be irritating,*you are too sometimes;p*

sometimes i'm blind to see your love & be jealous of others,

but if i view back this relationship,it doesnt really lack from what i thought it is.!

Its just perfect the way it is...!

All your sweet little things/actions that cant be bought by money that are done by you,

it creates a sweet mixture of everything that is in our love portion!

I really do love you & this time,i believed that your words arent just sweet & empty,

but its fulfilled and not just words in the dark.,bby,prove me that i'm right & never break my trust.

I've finally trusted you dear..

I seriously feels that you are my soulmate,never fly away again aite?

You have flown once,but came back settling at my shoulder,now

Lock your heart & be with me aite.?

Hugs & kisses!xoxo!

Muhammad Yazri Bin Ahmad,i sayang you.!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-27T14:49:00.000+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

I'm freaking angry right now..!she doesnt know the true story,
she wanna just tuduh..well kiki..
You're fasting...just bersababar aite dear..?
Just hope that you get the sponsorship,& its all settled.
She will have to keep quiet.
Arrgh!i just wanna go out wif my babes later on,buka puase same2,& eat fried mars bar..
Girls& boys,tak sabarrr!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-26T01:03:00.002+08:00

1st of all...
HAPPY M-18 BIRTHDAY NAMIRA ANDI JOHAN!
i hope you have a great life ahead of you,
Being known for being the craziest girl in class
You & nazira were e best of friends, i appreciate every moments that you guys shared.
Thanks for being the same CCA partner(eventhough sometimes i skipped practice:P)
I hope that things wif your parent will go smoothly soon,i guess now they should know that you are no longer in the adolescent stage but instead are in the Young Adult Stage alrd...:)
I hope you pass your exam wif flying colours & Now you can watch M-18 movies wif us alrd!
hehehe!And make POSB card alrd..!
hehehe..thats all for my wish,Have a great life,hope we be friends forever..!
Stay pretty!
Happy 18th birthday!
Sadly,ur birthday falls on the day before exam so we cant celebrate..hurhur.
There's always other times rite?hehe!

OK...
hmm...I'm currently freaking bored,cant concentrate on study now..
Tomorow afternoon then i'll start,PROMISE!
hehe..HOORAY,& ITS DOWN TO THE FINAL PAPER ALREADY..
On thursday!
I know i did screw up a few subject,but lets not give up aite?
So biology paper was.....Ok...
but MCQ was a lil bit so&So..
70 qns..i manage to do 50qn wif a lil much hope,but the rest.....
lets just say,i depend on Luck...
SEQ was the rox bebeh!
whatever that i focus & learn came out in the exact same qn.!
BUT...
Lets just hope a good pass aite?
Yesterday paper,i just feel like throwing out my mind,cos when i need it,
as i remember memorising the THINGS all the way even when i was going out of train & all..
But..when i look at the paper,i suddenly forgot the words definition for the Acronyms that i created myself..wtf!
i remember losing 20 marks just like thatt...
pfft!
well..Bbylove was being so swit the whole night,motivating me wif sweet words,
encouraging me not to give up,giving me advice,listen to the stress that i have..
& to prevent me of not being late to school for exam,
eventhough he doesnt have anything in the morning,*i think he put alarm clock*
he put the effort to wake me up on time at 6.30am both morning so i wont be late for exam..
& when i complain to him how tough the paper is,
he motivate me to look on the bright side & even says that he will pray for me that i'll pass my exam smoothly..
Thanks babylove!
Well..Just now,Namira was being sweet enough to be my tour guide at Bedok..
haha!apparently i have to meet my buyer there,so sambil tu kita jalan2 pat sane..
Bought a few items for baking,cos i actually wanted to bake something,but then suddenly malas pulak.Nvm,future use.
I also bought orange icing...for brownie or whatever decoration...haha..ok.k..
I'm bored..
i've got nothing to say right now..so i better just stop..
Goodnight peeps..
Oh btw,I've updated my blogshop again,do take a look aite;)

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-23T02:32:00.004+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Hehe...tawuu sayangg!tawuu rindu!
*chope**chope* call me and say he's under the blk opp of mine!
I love you babylove!*dia cakap keluar untuk belik rokok n he miss me,so he came down my area...!
Cakap rinduu..!wee~~!
so we meet jap for 15 mins*while waiting for mom to fetch me*cos i have to go off to mummy's house @ khatib...

Time check:11 plus @ night

Date Check:1st day puase!

hehehe...
So yesterday,me n fad meetup @ NorthPt cos i wanted to pass her uniform yang baru..
that she kirim wif me & talk over dinner cos apparently fad havent eat since Morning..-___-"

So yeah...we plan to eat @ Mac but kite jalan skalik,penuh!
So terpakselah makan pat LJS...skalik baru tengah queue wif Fad...
Looking at the menu..
Came one of the LJS worker-a girl who work there suddenly from inside the back room,
approach me..
I like tak kena gaya,cos you noe y?
She asked me,"awak2,tanya sikit bleh?awak single ke attached?"
I secara automaticnye say "attached..haha"
I terus very tak kena gaya...!fad bukan nye nk tolong!-_-"

Then dia tanye again,"sbb ade orang pat dalam tu dia tanya,..

abeh..klau nk bikin kawan dgn awak boleeh?"

i seriously macam tak kena gaya And so my anwer was super out of point..which is

"taktawu..haha.."
orang tu tanye boleh buat kawan ke tak,my answer tak tau..hahah..macam pelik pulakk my answer..haha!

whoops!
hahahaha...k.k..i know this kind of incident very random n had happen alot of time n to alot peeps.i knoww very boring kan?haha..
Just takde story nak blog about..so i blog bout this.hahaha..

So after that me n fad we had our dinner & apparently there's a fly inside our drink..-_-'

then fad kongsi2 about her story wif her eye candy*interesting!*

& then hubbylove msg-ed me cakap nak jumpa jap...

padehal ade orang tuu cakap taknk jumpe tauu at 1stt..

hehehe..but anyway,i appreciate it every little thing tat u do!

so ya...after jumpa fad then jumpe bbylove n we lepaskan rindu*hugs**hugs*
tu jekk..the end of story...
OHya!
Tadik i came across this blogshop,they sell customised lip balm n you get to choose every single things,from colours,glitters to flavours!
You can mix2 your own colour & the flavour..
its edible flavour too!
I chose mine,macam brownish red gituu,i likee!
& the flavour?CHOCOLATE! mix wif rasberry,n also lil bit of strawberry!YUMMY!macam air starbuck lah kann..mix2!
hehe!n its superr cheeap lah kan!5 bucks bebeh!
Once i collect mine,i show you guys k??!
Currently i'm at mum house n this irritating minah kitten of mine keep stepping on my laptop keyboard...so i have to blogged quickly...grr!she keep pijak2 at all the words!
n i have to keep on erasing...
klah..tu jekk!gdnite!
Visit My blogshop k peeps??!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

P.s:Kak Nas,suddenly i miss you!hehe,dont forget ehk,kita nanti keluar gi bazaar sama2!& yazri cakap klau dia free dia ikott!

2009-08-21T02:01:00.003+08:00

and this year it happens again!
boy,seriously did u noe how many time i wished it would never happen!
You know my heart is fragile too endure this,i dont want my last year incident to happen again!
yes boy,u're making me heart weaker when you said it.
Siape tak sayang mataer sia!
Siape tak rindu mataer sey!
i'm freaking upset,i know i should understand the month,
but why isit only US and not other couples?!
yang baik2 lagi pun nt like us,
at least they meet at night..
N..if You're gonna say tat we cant sms also again like what you told me last year fasting month,i'm gonna tell you this..
*Bullshit!*
Hey,kalau setakat respect jek,i know...
Boy i tried to understand you,but i cant seem to!
Then its just similar to temporary breakup rite?just a change of story.
Ok..you havent said about the sms yet..but if you gonna say it..
Yeah...i'll be gone for a while..M.I.A & wont inform you..till you look for me again,if you can find lah..aite?
Goodluck boy..!
Yes,i should understand the month,but tak sampai this extend right??!
oh well..good bye!
I'm just gonna post one question to the couples outside there,
For fasting month,what did you guys do?
Do you guys meetup?
AND You guys will continue sms-ing each other just like a normal day right?
If the answer is opposite of what other couples are doing,i dono wat to say to you.
Can someone just teach me of the understanding of him?n what he meant!
Boy,i really love you & this anger shows that i really love you but my heart too weak to endure this.!
I really dont want my last year incident to happen again to you..
I'm sorry!i really couldnt control my emotion!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-18T00:38:00.002+08:00

Hey babies & dudes!
I've finally officially launch my Blogshop
as sales are going better=)
Do Check it out!Most items are New!
I'm selling at Low Low Price as a launching discount..
For those who have Blogshop,
Link me too!I'll link you too no worries!
Do checkout the items!
weee~~!
08/08/09

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2009-08-17T01:12:00.008+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

*Warning!this gonna be a long long post with alot of pictures!Prepare to Hibernate!*
p.S:pictures will only be uploaded when blogger allowed me to!malas nak pakai photobucket,byk sangat pictures!

Hello babiess!!
I'm backkkkkkkkk!!
ok..1st things 1st,work sucks..later i ceritakan...
BUT NOW..
i wanna cerita about the OVERNITE CAMPING!!
wooohhoo!yes2!wif my bbylove & family!
And it turn out...SUPERB!
My family aka mum's side approve of him n gave their support..
cos he manage to tambatkan hati my atuk n family..
my atok starting2,baru 1st kali jumpa dah kasi 75% approval..
padehal baru whole nite spend together...
but he did his best to win their heart..
*p.s:dgar2 ade budak tu,e whole nite tak tido cos nak fikir kan cara untuk menambatkan hati mertua n dari starting kita jumpa in e afternoon sampailah before my family member arrive,stress dia..pasal nk jumpa mertua dia..muahaha*
but seriously,i really really feel so touch when he willing to even overnite just to bond wif my family eventhough he had to wake up at 5am cos he have some Ns event which required him to RUN 10 km..yes...RUN there's specific timing also!
n he had to report there by 6.15am..
So yeah...

This is how e day started,i met bbylove at ard 3 plus
*sorry bbylove cos i janji melayu,janji kul 3 jumpa ard 3 plus++*
and dengan sabarnye dia menunggu tanpe sembarang complain..
So yeah,at 1st my plan was to take mom's car,but mummy going later like ard 8+pm..
So mummy told us to go first n book a place cos sadly,when mummy was about to book a pit,all pits are taken..so yeah..
1st,kita like ragu2 on which bus to take but then in the end we figured a way which is to take bus 969 to tampines then take 29 from there..So yeah..we bus-ed there,it was packed in the bus so me n bbylove just stand beside each other,then we didnt talk much but instead we sms-ed each other..hahahha..n it made me wanna laugh..hahaha..ish!nasib i didnt LOL..kalau tak org ingatkan i'm crazy..then bbylove actually plan to watch movie 1st @ cathay/Gv pat Tampines tu n cerita chinese yang baru tu..the where got ghost? i think he's refering to...
sebab he say cerita cina tuu...
but i told him to just postpone it to next week or what cos i scared takde tempat @ beach..
So yeah...when we reach Changi beach,it was quite windy..so we found a place to sit n also for they all later on to pasang camp n all..
So while we waited for sis n her bf to come*cos they r cumin earlier*
we talked about our life...school,work & all...
At first i was a lil PMS while he,being e irritating self kept on irritate me.
feelll likee nk bittee bittee him jekk!grrr!
So we spend e time together n waited n waited till sis n her bf arrive..
he had alot idea in mind,nk gi cycling lah ni lah tu lah..but sadly,takde orang nk jaga tempat so we tetap had to wait for sis to come..
So at 7+pm sis finally arrive wif her bf n we pitch e tent,
then finally kita dapat jalan2,so we left our things in sis/her bf camp n we go toilet..
*the part i like is the part when he wait for me outside toilet n then sneak a kiss in between,cant forget that part!*
and then came THE BEST PART..!OMG!
so..after we came back from the toilet,bbylove wanted to smoke 1st n he left his cigg in his bag,
so we went back to my sis camp,n he ask me to help him take,so i go back to the tent,
but the tent was 3/4 zipped up..so i tot...just call out my sis to ask her to pass me the bag,
SO i went on shouting "kakakX3!amik kan rokok yazri dalam bag dia!* and i shouted out loud quite a few time n i even knock2 at e camp,no reply.i wanted to open e zip but suddenly i feel tak sedap hati" so i asked bbylove again,"b,ni betul punya camp kan?!" then kita dua2 look at each other and realise that it seems wrong..so i decided to call up my sister and ask her where she is...
and to my horror..
My sister bf keluar dari camp not far from us to look for us,when we saw which camp he comeout,i immediately burst out laughing n straightaway covered my face n bbylove was laughong so hard cos apparently,WE ARE AT THE WRONG TENT!
Hubbylove punya pasal lah ni!hmmph!i'm more embarrass than he is cos at least he wasnt e one knocking n shouting at e camp!but malunya aku!!!!
i still cannot forget that! incident,bb!semua u punya pasaalll!;p
hehehe.bluek!
So yeah...after that incident,i just stayed outside sis n her bf camp..
n then we took turn,while my sis n her bf go to toilet,we take care of the camp..
Just bbylove & me..

then when they came back,we went to walk along the seashore...
feeling2 romantic lah kan...:p

then we sat down looking at e sea n then we talk about everything in life..
then we decide to turn n look back at the camp,apparently that camp belong to a young malay couple like ard sis age wif her bf..
then they went back in and..
we saw 2 shadow moving2 inside,we saw their shadow action..muahaha..

then after that we talk2 till they all arrive,
bbylove was super helpful..!
then dah makan2 & all,mummy wanted to go to changi village
cos she wanted to buy ice,charcoal n sumore things..
then at first we decide to walk there,but then mummy change her mind & decide to just drive there,so me,bbylove n my adik who menyibok2 nk ikot we all ikot mummy to her car & all..
then buy2 things,then mummy n adik go buy water while me & bbylove go n buy ice & charcoal..
But the cute part was that,we were about to pick up a charcoal bag @ 7/11 skalik,a cat was peacefully sleeping on top of the charcoal bag..macam tak bersalah gitu..alala..cute kan?!haha
So ya,after we paid everything,we all went back...then after that me n bbylove went to look for cousin n her bf who's coincidently her bf name yazid*not his bro,no worry kak nas*:p as they lost their way ..hahha..
and nenek point out,tat all the bf name starts wif Y..
Cousin's bf=Yazid
Sis's bf=Yunos
bbylove=Yazri
So yeah...
Then bbylove was engrossed talking to atok for like a good 2++ hour while i menyibok2
squeeze in wif my bantal busyuk to dgar them..:p
then mummy was telling ghost experience @ her werkplace @ hospital..
it creeps me out..so in e end i just stick nearby to bbylove..
then ate ikan bakar,ayam bakar..muahaha..
Then got a cat menyibok2 dudok at our tempat,konon2nya dia nk join in e fun lah kan..

hahaha..we gave tat cat chicken wing...n he/she came back again after eating..
we named it Friendly cat..
then i played mum's laptop n surf e net..update2 my twitter n facebook n then ya..
every1 talk2 till 2++/3 am then they all when to sleep...
me n bbylove @ first decide not to sleep since he scared he cannot wakeup later on @ 5am..
then we go toilet,then apparently bbylove say that he just wanted to get a 10 min snooze cos he was a lil tired so we went back to our tent area n i put 10 min alarm..and slept beside bbylove..
but in the end we slept half& hour ..we kept snoozing alarm every 10min n then
and we were about to snooze back for the 4th time but then bbylove punya kaki was suddenly bitten by the semot api n then he was wide awake..!terkejot dia!
n he was scratching2 all over..then in the end bbylove decide not to sleep & ask me to just sleep on his lap..
then ard 5am bbylove woke me up n we pack2 his thing in camp,n we sneak in a quick kiss which i would never forget n then off he went..

suddenly went he said goodbye..
i feel like so sadd..n feel so emotional n nk cry...weird but true..cos
i dun want him to leave n i really pity him cos he didnt have enough sleep n he had to run 10 km..haish..i really feel touch when he's willing to sacrifice e whole night to just spend it wif me..
told him to drink red bull..n off he went to catch 1st bus/but in the end heard he just took taxi..cos 1s bus was late n he had to report there by 6.15am..
and ya...msg-ed bbylove to thank him for the sweet nite n for his coming n spending time wif me..and then i went back to sleep..
and when i woke up,apparently it was sunrise..n the sun rays was straight to my face..the sun was facing me so the 1st thing i saw when i woke up was e sunrise..
Then apparently,my nenek/atok were all looking for him n asking me where he is n wat time he gone off n they pity him too..
n the good thing is that they told me to invite him again next time...wee~~!
so yup,then they all mandi2 laut n we pack2 things then ard 10+/11am we go off n mummy sent us all back..
n yeah..

once i reach home straight i go bath,i was apparently wanted to blog..i on my laptop...
on blogger...
n then i sleep.-_-"
hahaha..then i had to go work @ 7pm..
apparently i have no mood to work n i feel real tired.but i dragged myself cos dun want to cabot n menyusahkan orang..

Then at work...
i wasnt my usual self..i was quiet the whole time..
i only talk when needed..
cos apparently today i'm werking wif peeps who tak kena wif me..
manager was ok..but...the..nvm..
Then at the end of the day,there was a disagreement wif me n the another partner..
This is what happen..
apparently,i was suppose to be working till 7-12am today,which is the closing shift..
but at work,suddenly my manager decide to change n just put me till 11pm which is considered the PRE-CLOSING shift..cos as apparently,another new partner is coming in and THEIR SHIFT IS TILL 12am!
which is CLOSING SHIFT and they were suppose to be doing all the CLOSING work which is to clean outside n inside.AND THEY GET PAID FOR THE 1 hour.
Usually at most there's only 2 closer,one do outside e other 1 do inside..
SO usually store on sunday would close at 11pm.so my shift habis kul 11pm i would have to clock out at 11pm.!
So since the store was close to empty except for a few customer at the main carpet area ard 10plus,*if i do closing,i would only start cleaning outside after all the customer leave n store close which is ard 11pm*
then i decide to HELP my partner do most of the closing things since she asked for help..
*I help to mop/sweep at outside n inside where there's no more customer n also i bring in the cushion,change dustbin/bring in newspaper/dishwash...*-this are the job of closer.and all the things..n it was 3/4 done without complain..
n then the customer still hasnt left..so i just told me partner that i've helped her do most of her outside job alrd except for just sweeping the main carpet area...n thats the only thing need to be done..and its 2min close to 11pm.
and you know what she say?she asked me why i cant sweep myself n told me to go and sweep!
wtf!i told her that i wanna go toilet n and she say go toilet quickly..
what?!am i her maid?
hey,!there's 2 closing partners,*she n the new guy* for goodness sake!n she say its MY job to clean the outside area.Hey!thats the Job of a Closer Not a Pre-closer..
And they even Get paid for the 1 hour n i alrd help most of it even though i didnt get paid for it.
I HELPED Her n she demand i do all..
Then wth did u get paid for the 1 hour..
if u wanna say i mengira or unhelpful,then i wouldnt have alrd helped to clean Most of the outside area,!
i would have just did my preclosing n when time came i would have just clock off without even helping to even do a single thing outside.!
How ungrateful can it be?n the best part was when she complained to the manager about me not sweeping outside..n i doubt the manager know whats going on or she decide to side he..
n the manager ask me why i never clean outside.!WTH kan?
ehkk...ish!geram sey!
I helped & u decide to just step over my kindness n demand for more!
hey,how ungrateful can u be?
n now u guys are against me lah kan?..haish..
Dulu,after e incident @ store outing u guys have apologised,after e way u treat me n calling me names..after my Store manager talk to you alrd..n she told me u wont do it again..i'm cool wif it alrd..and now u start it again..haish..if it wasnt for some good/cool peeps in store,i would have long time leave sei..if u have notice,i'm trying my best to control my anger,but u just step over it n think i'm a small kid..n can just treat me like i'm much younger than u..n u are much bigger than me!But hey!just remember,i'm much older then u!and the way you treat me is really wrong..when i kept quiet,it doesnt meant i'm vulnerable n u can just demand me to do anything.
haish..i really need to talk to someone or my store manager or manager..
i know you used to be better than me,and im much slower in picking up skills..but hey!i've improve n just remember,u are not even a learning coach or seniors,did you remember,you came in the same time as me,we were in the same training class,we are employed together..not that you are much senior than me!if atleast you had been in store much earlier than me or become my senior,atleast i would have just listen..but no..you came in the same time as me..
so please..!i never wanted to pick a fight but u started it n when i just controled my anger,you decide to just step on it thinking i'm vulnerable..please..seriously,if i had hurt u before,i'm sorry.
if i've hurt u by saying all this,i'm truly sorry..Just remember,eventhough i'm quiet ard you,it doesnt meant i'm vulnerable,i'm just giving in..but tis time,i have given in too much..
Finally,i wanna say i'm sorry..i never wanna create an enemy,i'm just trying to defend myself and state the truth if in case peeps really wanna know what really happen.

Yours Sincerely,
kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-14T23:51:00.001+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Hello babies!
whoops!i dono how the gambar tersesat tadi in my blog..
hahah!k.k.forget it!tadi tak sempat nk edit pun..
Becos.Its like this...
i was blogging2,skalik...
I receive a call from TTSH...and terus i was excited!
and yeah...The Scheduled interview will be on 3rd of september..
Dah excited2 tau,then to add on the excitement shaqila also excitedly msn-ed me telling that the TTSH punya orang pun called her!and to be coincidence,her timing is so close to mine also!hers is at 2.45pm while mine is at 2pm!
alah..tuptup my interview finish,its her turn..!
kita pun excited2 and plan to go together...!
I really hope i can get through the interview successfully!
Peeps who has gone for the sponsorship interview,can gimme tips pretty pleeassee!!
I really really wanted to get a sponsorship from them,so can same2 hospital wif my beloved kak nas who also work der!
Shall not put my hopes high,n hopefully they just depend on my Olevel result!
which is good..but not my poly result!
pretty pleaasee!

So yeah..so i was about to continue blogging,
then i received a call from mummy,telling me she's hungry and she wanted to go sumwhere cos she's pretty bored like i am!
so tup2,she asked me to siap2 cepat2 cos she will be picking me up wif my adik also.
*chewah*best sey when mummy dah pass!
so we headed to Northpoint,bought chewy junior and prata sausage and sum other things,
rice & all,then we headed to sembawang park...
we lepak2 there,bonding time wif mummy...
kirekan mother-daughter/son bonding time lah kan..
then we talk about life,tomorrow camping..
then bbylove called wif his fren hp since he's in tekong...nvr bring his hp..
just to tell me he missed me alot,then kacau2 me..
then he promised to call me back once he reach his camp.
Tapi yang excitednye kan..bbylove will be following to the changi overnite camping!
yippee!love him so muchh!
will be looking forward to spending time overnite wif my family,n him!
So kita sume akan ber-couple2..
My sis wif her bf..
My mum wif her bf..
My nenek wif Atuk..;p
My cousin wif her bf..
and me wif hubbylove..
Woohoo!bsok 1st time he's gonna meet my nenek and auntie..
k.k..shall not put high hopes...
So ya..mummy sent me n bro home..
tomorrow i might be going out earlier wif hubbylove to find a space since mummy last minute couldnt get a pit..=(
So yeah..thats all about it..
and to my beloved friends,in school,Nyp or Ex-yss
jangan bersedih2 k?Behind every bad things,there's always a good things..remember that!
=)

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-13T15:44:00.006+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)
"there was a time...when trouble seems to much for us to take...
BUT we Did..."

Hello babies...
i'm freaking bored.....
feeling unwell...
actually...honestly,i dont really know what to feel right now..
On Sat,Mom & grandma side of family plan to go Changi sea side..
i couldnt see the reason why i should not be following..
Exam is just a few days away,i might just as well bring along my notes..
I need to calm down my stress...
I really hope hubby can make it eventhough he had a 10km run event thingy just to gain a badge the next day..
Hopefully,eventhough you may or may not overnight..
i really hope you can come along bb..
Shouldnt put my hopes high...
If it jadi,This will be e first time bb gonna meet my grandma,
& i hope things goes smoothly and she would approve of him..

OH!btw..now i'm craving for Nyp Chicken Nugget.
yeah,e south canteen's malay/indian store..
I miss the egg prata too add curry wif chicken nugget!
=(
Gonna get it before Fasting month.

and oh yeah!
Eventhough this year i know i'm gonna 'celebrate' raya in Hospital as in i'll be working on the whole month of raya or shall i say whole weekdays for the month of raya..
there's still week ends right??
And i'm soo looking forward to go out Jalan2 raya wif my Classmates eventhough we had attchment during weekdays,
There's still week ends rite*winks*

and currently,my baju raya which was sweetly jahit by my nenek
and i swear its beautiful and i'm in love wif it..!
aww!Kebaya lagik!
i dono why,but i prefer Kebaya rather than Baju kurung...!
The baju kurung doesnt suits me right as in it wont really flatter me..
and guess what!its PINK in colour,she knows me inside & out that i'm a die hard fan of PINK!
i have e pic,but..dah nk raya then i post it aite?tak surprise if post siang2..:p
And i might be buying another piece of baju kebaya,cos i was hoping me n bb wud wear same colour..
n it will be e first time ade baju raya same wif a bf...or shall i say hubby...
but my hopes arent high cos i'm not even sure if bb gonna celebrate it this year,
i hope he have e mood,not like last year...alah..understandable..
last year kan,kita baru early2 relationship...
but seriously i was hoping this year we can be wearing e same colour..kan macam sweet gituk.
but..
Hopefully lah kan..
rather not put my hopes high..
This is my 1st relationship that is this long..
1 year soon to be 3 month..
By the time raya...we shud be on the going to be 1 year 5 months.. wah!
after all those years of going through pain,i finally found a guy who's worth going through all the pain..i really hope that he wont be e same as e rest,i've witness alot of things that make me sure that u're not like e rest,dont ever change my perception aite?
once its gone,its gone.
Lama jugak lah kan e relationship..
But deep inside i know we last forever,hopefully we could go through the thicks & thins of our relationship together.
Like what you said,"deep inside our heart,we know we are married through our heart..
only that its unofficial"
I wanted us to last forever,i can imagine us on our pelamin*cheyway*maybe in few years time,as in
4 years time rite b?
I wanna be finishing my poly life & then i got my work life..
and bb by e time had finished serving Ns...
i wanna be a young mother as in not too young lah but ard by 23 yrs old gitu dah ade baby..kan comel tuu!
tak bagus lambat2 married..
haha..thats wat i think lah..
cos like my mum,she's a young mother..
and till now peeps tot tat she's our sister..
even got this one time,during e malay wedding which my mum goes wif us n nenek,
den one of e relative us my nenek,ehk,mane mak budak2 ni,si shida tu..
and we were freaking rite infront of her wif mummy beside us.
and then my nenek point to mummy,*ni shida lah,mak dia!*
then e relative was like,NO LAH!
"ehk,shida tu kan ade 3 anak,ni tiga2 anak dia,ni kakak,ni adek,mane shida?!"
and we were like grinning away alrd..
mati2 taknk percaya tat was mummmy!
hahhaa...
k.k..enough of e marriage talk,its a long journey to go..
For now i'll be focusing on just nursing..

My plan was to have a Nursing diploma,then attch at hospital for few years,and then let Nursing be my stepping stone
for a much better career,i'll be taking advanced study or sumthing then maybe become a lecturer or sumthing*winks2*
so that will fulfill my dreams of being a teacher or sumthing close to being a teacher.
k.k.had a long long journay ahead.wow!
too much dreams..
well...but..who said dreams cant be achieve??
right2,for now i may be slacking but thats normal for Year 1,
Maybe in future i'll be much more focus?
haha..
goodluck kiki..
put your dreams high k?

and for now..
I'm so into Elmo,so if you know any shops or blogshops that sell Elmo stuff,tell me aite:P
i Love RED-I LOVE ELMO.!
I love Hot PINK-I love MINNIE MOUSE!
k.k..
i love this two character!
nak gi disney land uh like that..
ehk,disney land ade elmo tak?
XD

and oh!i think my fav artist aka Nora Danish also like Elmo!

alalala!cutenye!

*picture taken and edited from her friendster*

Bye babies,have a good night sleep.!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-11T23:07:00.005+08:00

31/05/2008 is where it all started..=)

Studying..

Namira & farhat....

Hello dearies...
Well...currently i'm under pressure aka stress...
Tomorrow's the start of the exam..
its good that i'm more prepared now..but not much confidence yet..
Yes..i have been mugging for exam as much as i can..
see!even break time,we study,bawah blk cos apparently the school library was too full..
Everyone wants to study.
I'm scared i might break down now cos my anxiety has increased..
Tomorrow is the paper for Safety in Healthcare..
hmm...
cant say much or i'll be more stress...

hmm...
just now i was just looking around..
to break my stress..i bloghop..
I saw quite alot of sweet things done by the guys or the girls in the relationship..
so it brought me thinking of my own hubby...
Its like..
There's quite alot of different ways couple showed their love to each other,
for eg.naz,her guy was so swit enuf to even create a song for her..
and i found it quite sweet!
and in another blog,e guy brought the girl to a place she never been..
and it really touch her heart...and its romantic..
and there's more but this is just some of it..
and it brought me thinking too..
I had my share too..
from just a simple thing to the unexpected things done..
sweetest to the sneakiest things..
Its just is great to have a taste of love..
i'm sure out there,there's more romantic things a guy or a girl had done to each other..
Every couple had their own way of expressing their love..for mine..
The heart is the one that plays the most part of it..
its not seen but instead it was felt.
every little thing that he did,sometimes it makes me really feel touch..
But...
Love is not just sweetness and all..
You have to past through the pain before you taste the sweetness..
Just like Opening a durian wif your bare hand just to have a taste of the fruits inside.
Just like Getting through a bunch of bees,getting stunk by them just to get the honey in the beehive..
If you just gave up and you cant endure the pain,then you wont get to taste the honey nor the fruits inside durian.
So..what i'm trying to say is that...if you got stunk,dun worry,it will heal...
but you get to taste the sweetness of the honey in the end right?
its just a matter of time..
Yes...i've gone through all the process..
The pain and all..the heartache..
Its been a long process,but i never gave up.
instead i pull myself up and continue walking,
& finally who's is there beside me?
and finally you get the feeling that you have wanted for a long time.its just priceless.
never mind of those who laugh at your fall,those who critise you..
They did that because either they are jealous that you still have the courage to stand up and never gave up and they never did when they fall or that because they have never been in the situation.
So for those who had fall..
Stand back up straight and see the light at the end of the tunnel.
You know,everything happen for a reason..and you know behind every bad things theres always a good thing behind it.
So good luck,never give up in love.!
For atikah,eventhough i dont really know what really happen
but i know you are a strong girl,and therefore like i've said,stand tall up!you know you're our best girl,and you deserve better,you are one of the gerek we had in NR0912,
eventhough i may not really be in ur shoe now,like what you have said once,but i've experience things worst than that before.
its only between myself and my soul.
I know you deserve better,knowing that you are one of our best girl..
To naz,i'm glad you felt much better now eventhough sometimes the irritating flashback came,
but you know,you are a strong girl,and sometimes i envy ur relationship cos your guy love you alot and he really sometimes sacrifice for you.It hard to forgive but its harder to forget,but dont worry,you will still get back up no matter how much you fall..
And really wanted to see that smile on ur face again..
We are here for you!
To Namira,i know its kinda hard to be in ur situation right now when parents dont understand the phase of teenage life.But they did that because they love you alot and they wanted the best for you.You are their only girl they have and they dont want anyone else to touch you.Cos they love you alot.and i really meant it.For now,maybe you just do what you think is the best,dont be angry wif them because they dont understand you,they just wanted the best for you right?
Dont worry aite?my parents are like that too once,but they are much better understanding now..it just takes time for them to be comfortable.dont worry aite?one day they will understand and approve it aite?you know,we still love you and they love you too.

and to myself..
Finally,i realise no matter what
all the bad & good side of my guy,
he always put the one he love before himself,
Loving them more then he love himself.
And therefore i love him so much...
I have accepted him for who he is..
He's love is just right for me.
Please,never take him away from me,
Every tears is worth crying for him..
His trust for me is high,bby,i promised never to break ur trust.
Like how ur love for me,its just endless...
Muhammad Yazri Bin Ahmad,i love you,.
And now i'm missing you fucking much.
You are just the right man for me,even through the fights,you never fails to make everything alright cos you never want to lose this relationship even if it takes to push away a big ego just to give in.
bby,i'm touch..!
I seriously in love wif you...!

Yours Sincerely,
Siti Nurhashikin

2009-08-10T19:58:00.005+08:00

Hello babies!!

hmm..wee~

this 3 days have been eventful for me..

can be said quite packed.!

hehe..

letme start from Saturday..

So yeah..

i went to jemputan over to my nenek side..

her sister or what..i dono..*dont care too actually*;p

but since MUM had PASSED her car license*double yeay!*

3 days ago..

they just decide to ask my mum to drive her own car..

so yeah..

at night..

i slept over at mum house..

ate the buffalo spicy wing at New York pizza wif mum

and also e cheese fries.

Sunday...

which is of course,YESTERDAY!

yeay!National day!

*that explains the red shirt i'm wearing in the picture*

ohh!!btw..notice the hand behind me in the picture?

hehe..that was hubby's hand massaging my shoulder and back...

cos i was complaining of ache..
So yeah..

Met hubby in e afternoon and we spent our national day together..

So 1st we went to Yishun Safra to take e membership thingy..

cos currently bb had signed up as on 8 year membership there..f i'm not wrong..

some sort of their Ns thing..

*He hinted on more of bowling dates and all*

iand also received a cool touch screen MP5!

aww..i envy it!

Then we went to Tampines mall cos hubby had wanted to shop there

for a new jean and shoe and he also had been wanting to watch G.I Joe.

So we went there and after buying tickets,

we went to walk around 1st to look for his jeans..

and there bb fall in love wif e jeans at Freshbox or sumthing.

after he tried and bought the jean,

We went to watch G.I Joe-The rise of cobra and then had our dinner at LJS.

then after that we plan to go to the seaside..

but something happen along the way..

well...its between us..

So yeah..we had our time together and i love him.

and then work.

Today..

woke up quite late..

saw a few msg by hubby...

asking me to come 1st to his house to his mom and sister cos they have been asking about me and wanting to meet me..

and bby wanted to transfer the song from his old mp3/4 to the new Mp5.

So i brought along my laptop..

i also brought wif me my notes cos i plan to go library or sumwhere to study..

Met bby..

he's becuming cuter and hotter as days goes by..

Especially wif his hair like dat,i swear i melt..

he's just like e time when we were in sec skul years..

his hair had grown and he spike it up..

*resist to temptation bebeh...*

and he cant resist to My temptation...;p

haha..*some inside joke between us*

but seriously...

wif his arm getting more muscular..*i especially cant get enough of it!*

he's hot!

fire burning bebeh..

hahaha...

k.k..enough2...!;p

who doesnt love their bf rite?

So yeah..met up wif him and we spent every moment we can get,together,till

he had to go home and packed up his things for camp..

and p.s!u noe wat my name was in his hp?

not dear not syg or kiki tau..

but...

"elmo syg"

cute lah tuu...

you know what's our mascot or what he represent as me??

ELMO!

yeah!

haha..if you wud have seen him ard...

you would see a lil elmo hanging on his bag...

and it shows how much devoted he is..

thats why i love him so much!

ohh...btw,tats my elmo!

and i have a little secret..

I'm falling for him AGAIN and Again.

sorry bby if i have doubted ur love..

all those jealousness..Those tears i cried cos i was being jealous...

those doubtfulness of ur love for me..i remember thr yesterday,when you told me that i shud know that we are already husband and wife..not bf & Gf but only that we have not been officially one..he already seen me as his wife.aww.

i know ur love is sincere for me..

and i'm e only one in ur heart...together

and Forever...

Hopefully..

I really was touch when everytime no matter how hard i gaduh wif u becos i doubt our relationship,u tetap wud just sabar n letme calm down first n assure me the truth..

I really wish and hope that i'm e only one in u heart now n forever cos i never wanna lose a man like you..one in a zillion.

never break my heart dear.

Kazunori love Youichi.

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-09T02:26:00.002+08:00

i'm still stuck with My past...
No..im not refering about my relationship past but instead..
it was the past when i was just having a crush on you..
how i wish things like this would have happen on the moment when i was still having a crush on you.
Almost everytime i would try my best to replay all the m0ments that i used to have.
yes..being in Yss really inprint some old memory.
yes..my 3/4 of Yss years memories are mostly made from the same person.
till sec 4 then i realise..it was just some stupid crush..
and then......It Happen.
yes.when i gave up on having a crush.
then he really responded.
like wth rite..
and now..i wish things like the way he treat me..
calling me all the cute name..
being love by him.had happen went i was being crazy over him.
K.i know things would have gone haywire.
I would have hurt a friend if that happen.
but one good side of it was that it never happen.
i NEVER WISHED to hurt anybody.
and i meant it.

I never wanna hurt anyone purposely or without purpose.

I'm avoiding that.

but the bad side of the story was that if it would have happen in the past.
i guess i will be crazily in love wif him..
like undetachable from him.but its the past and
yes..it must have been a big
NO of
him being wif me if i were still like the sec 1/sec 2 self.
yes.refering to the *geeky girl* i am last time.
i know he would have never even noticed me if i were still like that.
*big sad face*
and yes.he was attach wif sum1 else.
so ya..
i guess memories are the best thing you could ever think.
but i still wanna replay the moment when i was having a crush on him,
besties know best!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-07T18:00:00.000+08:00

Naz & kiki

Hello peeps!
just a quick update,gonna go off to work soon!
btw,I'M werking at Northpoint Starbuck for the 1st time today!!
weeee~~!attachment for 1 day jek..;p
i'm excited but at e same time i'm scared i couldnt handle e rush aka slammed later.
*pray hard for me to be alright!*
i hope i didnt get e same experience i get werking at civic's!

Ohh2!
btw...
i'm feeling kinda tense this two days..
cos i have a few problems in mind..
1stly,
My hubby hasnt called me or replied my message YET.
it has been close to 48hours since he have gone MIA.
*except e fact that i know he was at Tekong on Wed & Thurs*
tat might be a partial excuse..
BUT...
What about today???!haish..
did he not know that he made me go crazy...
*Ouch!*
& partially part of e reason why i couldnt stop thinking of him in school!
haish...*big sad face*
this few day i realise my mind cant seem to function...
like i refuse to think of anything..
did he not know that yesterday i was waiting for him to message till i fall asleep with the handphone Still in my HAND..=(
ok..tats bad..
haish..nvmlah...
=(
ouh..btw just now CGH called me to ask me whether i still want e interview...
for e sponsorship....but too bad its far..
i hope TTSH will call me & also approve my Sponsorship..
Money!Money come in quickly!
if they approve,i'll get around $800 bucks per mth..
and i can stop working already..=)
..HOPEFULLY they will approve my sponsorship!
*pray hard*
ohh!btw the eyeshimmer aka eyeshadow have arrived safely!
excited to use them!
hahha...

k.k..gotta go off to work right now..take care!
shift start at 7pm
miss me aite?
;p

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-05T06:51:00.001+08:00

See that ring on my finger?
I'm still kinda wondering where the hell is my couple ring gone to...=(
haish..It was a few months past since i lost it,but just now when i was browsing through the items in my 'special box'..
i saw bb's ring...and it remind me of my lost ring..=(
That was the ring that was bought by hubby for us..
but sadly a few month later,i very the cuai,*haish*i lost it somewhere at home..
i remember being upset the whole day cos i lost it..
then bb being the switheart,gave me his
and told me to just hang it at my necklace cos his one is too big for my finger.
cos whats good it is if only he wore it,and mine no longer there..
I really wish i would found back my ring so that i can give back his.
so we can wore it back together again..
I'm seriously still sad about the lost of ring..
hmm..haish,nvm,one day we will still be able to wear a ring to match again..
the couple ring.

ok..how was school?
kinda happy cos i got to meet them again..
was feeling so sickish in the morning that i just refuse to do anything and was like a lil emo..
hahhaa...
no worries,when i'm sick,i keep quiet..
when i'm ok,i'm crazy/..=)
they manage to put back e smile on my face and so i was back to my normal self..
i'm still feeling kinda weak
tomorrow(wednesday),got Stage Art Makeup artist event thingy,at South Canteen..
Do come down and support me and Namira aite?=)

Ohhh...!!
btw..i already have open up a blog shop..
yes2..i'm so happy that the sales are going better now..
gonne launch it officially soon..*those seen it,shud have known wat i'm talking bout*
just wait till i officially launch it aite?
if sales are better,i will coleborate wif peeps aite?
almost all the items are Brand New and some are wif tag too!
and selling at reasonable pricee!!=))
hehe..

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-03T18:27:00.001+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

Hello babiess..=))
hmm...i'm freaking bored at home but i feel so freaking sick..
Practically i was doing next to nothing other than shopping
online...
Manage to find a good deal for my eyeshimmer aka eyeshadow that i'm currently using..
Yeah..the one i always use brown and white..
I bought another black,purple & brown and yeah...
the price they sell online is 3x cheaper than the normal price you buy outside..
and that include the postage...its below 10 bucks=))
i seriously love the eyeshimmer..hahaha...hope its mailed safely..=)
Hmm...just now...i woke up in the morning feeling much more better then yest..
bb was freaking worried and keep on insisting i rest alot...
and he wanted to be my side all along..but too bad he got guard duty..
haiya...
nvm,so ard 3+ just now,eventhough i was atill not well yet,manage to take a walk to chongpang..
cos i wanted to change my POSB card go its like as though a dog alrd chew on it..
hahha..change it to the POSB GO! card*i know i ketinggalan zaman*:p
then just cut my fringe cos i still love my hair on the back..
2 bucks jek!
hahha..nvm,dun want to cut myself cos i know it will turn disastrous..
hahaha..manage to crawl back home..
later on i will be going to mum house..
and from there i will be going to school tomorrow..
i wonder how's school today..
hmmm...i miss them...
i hope i'm better by tomorrow..

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-08-01T19:56:00.001+08:00

Welllllllllllllllllll~~~!
this was schoooll!
On friday,i have got a presentation...
LAST presentation lah seiii!!!
weee~~
SO me and shaqila semangat2 wear formal to school.
*we get extra marks for it if we wear formal*
both of us wif our high heels lagikkk!
Ok...
letme tell you about the high heels story..
ACTUALLY,yest i was alrd freaking late to NYP/..
Guess what?at 8:50am i was only at Yiochukang MRT..
and presentation starts at 9am.
And wif all the hussle of checking temp,i will be DEAD late if i never rush..
So,me being super clever,run to school all the way from MRT to School.
YES!WIF HIGH HEELS!
WITH THE *KETAK,KETUK,KETAK,KETUK* SOUND...
HAHAHHA!
most peeps were looking at 'this' crazy girl who is running to class wif high heels.
Malu sia but no choice.
Well!i passed in running wif high heelllss~~!weee~~
So i manage to take the lift..
so in the lift it was alrd 8.58am..
Once the door open,it was 9:00am.
I thought i have time,so i rushhh!
but LADYLUCK wasnt beside me,cos AS SOON AS I OPEN THE CLASSROOM DOOR,
IT turns 9:01am!the classroom clock!
shit man!
And the naggy teacher was like "WHAT TIME IZIT NOW??!"
i was like...err...err..9:01am(*i almost wanted to lie saying its 9:00am but decide not to)
then the cikgu membebel2,and then 2 mins later,OUR group leader oso baru sampai.
9:03am.
LOL.terus kena marah siaa!
then we had to immediately start our presentation-_-'
I was the first one cos my part is to give introduction and i tell you,
i havent even manage to catch my breath yet!
Damnit!
tak kasi chance sia..
so as expected,i did screwed up my part of presentation a lil..
then same goes to my group leader n oso some of our members..
then halfway through the presentation,
MY HANDPHONE RANG in MY BAG!
*someone message me!*grrr!
i pretend its not my hp,but every1 was looking at my bag.where the sound came from.-_-'
lucky cikgu no comment.
but we finally manage to present it all and within the range of time.
well..selamat!
then after that the next group buat presentation and then we went to bio class.
Today practical was fun cos its about blood type and we all get to check our own blood type ourself through the experiment.!
i was first macam penakut cos i'm scared of injection,so atikah kindly inject my finger for me...
so the first test,the result wasnt accurate as tak cukop darah..and i get a B-
which is quite rare among singaporean.
So AGAIN i have to do another injection,i was practically trying not to laugh..
then shakila help me poke me finger e second time wif e needle like injection..
and this time,the result was clear and accurate.
i get a B+
same goesn wif e rest of my besties and friends...
except for fatin and shakila..;p
then i immediately msged hubby asking him his result.
but sadly his is the exact opp of mine,which meants i cant donate him,he cant donate me,
then he asked me..."alahai..camne ehk?kalau u atau i sakit nak kena transfer blood camne?"
my reply was simple...
"mintak my dad cos he's blood can be given yo either 1 of us"
;p
hahhhahaaa..
then ya...so i manage to go to all the class and lecture..
and then decide to stay in e library to study n wait 4 his msged to confirm.
so ya..study and then in the end played the net..
-_-'
i'm gonna start my study this week..
On monday onward!need to buck up man!!
in 3 weeks time i had my exam alrd!
so ya...
today i was freaking sick since morning when i woke up..
haishh..
MY chest feels like exploding,i feel like taking out my throat and garuk it cos its super itchy..
i'm having a fever and my cough is getting worst!!
haish..ate my medicine alrd.but haish..
it doesnt seems to work.haish,pray for me to get well aite love?

YOurs Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-31T20:02:00.003+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

*you're my tall,dark,cute prince that i've been looking for*

Happy 1 year 2 month Anniversary bb!

*edited on saturday*

Hello babies!hmm...yesterday was our 1 year 2 month anniversary

So ya,in the mornin i had a presentation so i wore so much like an office girl wif high heels.

*more about school on the post above this*

So ya,later on i get to meet hubby after his bookout...

though it was a short one,i was touch cos he manage to take some time to spend wif me

eventhough he's freaking tired cos he had a tough training in the jungle earlier on.

Wif my office-girl like cloths;p

and he kept on calling me office girl and told me he had never seen me wearing like this before.

I told him i only worn it on presentation so ya...

After that,we went to his aunt's blk to take sumthing..

Terserempak wif kak comel and then bual2 while waiting for sumthing..

then after that we went to our usual place.

I wasnt really quite well yesterday cos i kept on coughing and coughing non stop..

Bb was being so swit,he let me baring on his lap and then he sapu kan vicks on me..

He even bought for me a 100plus cos he remembered once that i told him 100plus could help cure sore throat..and then he insisted i drink at least 75% of the 100plus in the bottle.

Then he insisted on me going doctor but i dont feel the need to..cos it wasnt tat bad.

after that i complain to him about my tired shoulder and then he again,without comment,massage my shoulder and back till i feel much better.

I couldnt ask for sum1 better....

then after that *he and his 'office girl' thingy*

-u know i know-;p

and i'm still weak n tired so he decide to just sent me..

along the way,we found a wallet that belongs to a malay guy ard 30+ according to the driver license.He had 5 children pic in it*k.k,ni i was just being kaypo2 cos i was looking for sumthing that stated his identity* but we never found anything,not even his ic or anything so we decide to just brought it to the police the next morning..

So ya...

before i reach home,he reminded me not to sleep late and eat my medicine and membebel*for my own good according to him*about not sleeping early..

then i promise him i will sleep early..

then baru budak tu happy..hahhaa

After i reach home,he kept on checking bout my health..

then the next day*today*,i was suppose to go for the volunteer thingy,

i told bb if he woke up early to just gimme a wake up call..

I know he'e never e type to wake up early,but surprisingly,this morning he woke me up..

So i guess its either tat he betul2 wake up early ataupun he put alarm just to wake me up at e right time..How sweet!

then ya..i woke up but wif a high fever and my chest hurt too much..

I was practically coughing non stop and its really hurting sia.

then i msg-ed hassan telling him i couldnt make it and then went to sleep again.

I was woken up wif bb call's and he told me that he missed me so much and he's freaking worried about my condition and ask me if i'm feeling much better and all..

and he asked me what i have for breakfast,i told him i ate a bunch of longan....

and then he started lecturing me of eating longan when i was having cough and all...

kan dah kena lecture....hahah..

Klah...

thats all for today.

Gonna update about school on the entries above this..

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-30T12:41:00.001+08:00

ateeennnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*happiest*

*my girls*

My red and white class!! "National Day"

nurulll!!!

farhhaat!!

shakila babehhh!!

2009-07-30T02:15:00.000+08:00

Sometimes...
even the people i love the most will neglect me..
just blame it on the luck of being the middle child..
If you notice,the middle child will always be left alone.
Whereas the first are showered wif attention cos they are the leader and every1 will make sure eveything she do will be approve by her.
the last one will be showered wif attention too cos they r e youngest and e youngest are always the most manja..
what about the second?
the second will always try be lest unattended to entertain herself.
I meant...i really felt the bias-ness of it.
The second one is always like the 'extras' in e family.
when the 1st n 3rd are busy or cant make it then e second 1 will be called up.
Everything,"ask ur sister 1st whethere she wants or not..*
meants what?i have to mengalah most of the time?
haish.i felt..
Like a spare tyre.
The parents will always try to jaga hati the oldest.
then the youngest they will control them,but e middle one..*buatlah apa kau nak*
Might as well dont deliver me.
letme just dont exist..
since it wont make so much different.
Dont worry.you have the 1st & 3rd right?
dahlah...everytime i remember ALL the incident that makes me write this,
i break down.
i guess its enough.
I will just see what i will do.

YOurs Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-29T00:34:00.003+08:00

Hello fellow humans~!
hmm....see those eyebags above?
so tak perlu!its the result of the sleepless night i have..
k.k.macam faham...its actually was a result of sleeping late nite..
i..siti nurhashikin,will pledge to sleep before 1 am now.
ok..tat meants i have 15 more minutes!
Late night sleep=Eyebag+Weightgain+sleepy face=UGLY
so...gonna learn my lesson now.
i'm still craving for the salad man!
awww!
i wanna eat salad everyday!nicee!craving for coffebean salad...aargh!
So hows school today?
hmm...it was kinda ok..Namira came..Yeay!
but she's on 3days MC...she wasnt suppose to come..hahaha!
but good that she come..=)
so yeah...
During break we had 3 hours,ate at south canteen.
bought Kiwi Iceblended but instead the auntie gave me PEPERMINT ICE BLENDED..
like EEEEEWWWW!!!
tak sedap!!then go n change..
auntie to tersalah...but wanna cover malu..
say i dunno how to taste lah..actual fact,the colour is both green and she mixed both up..then dah paisei,gave me a new 1..nasib this time real KIWI iceblended!
-_-'
camwhored wif them!=)
got alot but malas nak upload!

Love my girls on top!
then we head to library wait for lecture to start..
then cabot!
left our naz alone...sowie naz!
had some things on!
no matter what we still love you alot!!
thankss babe!!
Then was suppose to meet my buyer today,but
she cant make it..so
POSTPONE!
yeah..i've open a blogshop!!
once its official,i link k??=))

Then...Met a last minute meetup wif Irah and Fad!
thanks fad for teman-ing me till lecture start!
then after that we go meet irah at yishun library together...
Thanks irah for helping us take the TTSH sponsorship form!
Love ya!!
so..i'm gonna hantar the form somedays in this week!
gonna do it on weekdays...
so see how=))
i think i have to skipped lecture again cos the opening hours are only before 5pm..haish!
gonna do it ASAP!
gonna bond wif TTSH!
kak nas!here i comee:P
then ya...
had dinner wif them at LJS!
share stories about life..
girls,GDO asap aite?!
arisa!must come okey!!
then after went home..
feel so sickish!
Like my whole body feel so warm!
but not faver!
my sis just came back from malacca,
brought back Tshirts,keychains,Kaya Balls &........
SICKNESS!
she was having fever too!
and cough n all..
now i'm feeling much worst then i alrd am..
Bb called up justnow feeling all worried when i say i'm still sick
n he was practically keep asking me to eat ubat and all..
thanks dear for the concern!i love you!
my body feel one kind right now!
feverish!
haish!!=(
hope the temperature thingy in school wont go *beepbeep* at me tomorrow!
i guess thats all for today..gonna change the blog song now..
ohh..btw,fad n irah...
try listening to the song from Goodnight Nurse-My only
*if i'm nt wrong*
and my blog song..sedap!
gonna check my temperature now..
hope its normal!
love you guys..and goodnight!
oh btw..
HAPPY NURSES DAY!!
its nurses day for all Nurses today peeps!
got some events in school for nurses..
come along!
aka future nurses too.
-i'm included!yeay!-
hehee..!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-27T21:22:00.012+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

HELOO BABY!
-like wat he called me:p
wah...i noticed i have been M.I.A since....
LAST FRIDAY?
hahahahhahaha!!cheywah!
lama jugak tu!
k.k..lets see what i have done for the past few day...
ON FRIDAY
-BIO PRACTICAL TEST!-
i think i manage it lah...
the first half was easy..
but...along the way it get tougher!hahahhaaa!
but i hope i manage to breeze through the exam..:p
SO ya...after test,i immediately go to the Director of Nursing Office to
inform her that i have NO hospital*insert sad face here*
then...she check2,its true..they miss me out*sedih or wat!*
cos i'm '08 student....=(
then she manage to find a slot for me...
and....i get ALEXANDRA HOSPITAL!!
macam jauh kan!!
i ask,can change TTSH or not...but she say...slot dah penuh!
anyway there's one bus going straight to Alexandra
*mystery bus?*i'm not sure of the bus lah!
then...amik jelah AH..
well..its only 3 weeks there!
who knows i may like it..
then next year its gonna move to yishun,who knows they take me in there too!
best keper!dekat sia!
you never know till you try right?!
so ya...
Alexandra Hospital,here i comeeee!!~

-SATURDAY-
STAGE ART MAKEUP ARTIST GOES SHOPPINGG!!!!!~
So all of us met at BK,had our breakfast after thast
hahaha...our first stop was COSMOPROF~
as usual...every few months,we will buy the stuff there for the CCA..
and we were actually suppose to have an entourage around cosmoprof like every other year..
but due to some unforseen reason,the staff there terpakse batal kan..
well...there's always next year!
bumped into jaja there..she's kinda rushing for sumthing..
then we had fun camwhoring...
hahaa...GIRLS will always be GIRLs!
then we discuss2 about the STAGE ART MAKEUP ARTIST shirt..
then the next stop was SASA at PLAZA SINGAPURA...
they bought all the stuff needed for the CCA then they were planning
to go MUSTAFA centre...!
but me,namira n wawa decide to not follow..hehehe..
we had other plan...!
AT night...WORK!
hahahahaa..then got supper..
wif manager..then she talk about our life and stuff..
about the guys at work..hahaa..
and the civic thingy..

SUNDAY
REST DAY!!!!
like wow...i sleep like nobody business!
woke up like ard 3pm like dat...laze ard in bed..
studied a lil...rest again..
woke up wif bb sms-ing saying tat he have no choice but to balik camp for guard duty..
so just stayed home the whole day..
Rotting..its like the 1st sunday that i get to rest!
i was feeling a lil sick too.!

TODAY!!!
SO ya...
WOke up early in the morning by 3 alarm clock
*hubby called me up to wake me*
then snooze for 5 mins.
*hanphone alarm clock set off*
snooze for another 10 min
*my dad/maid kejot me to bangun*
then look at the watch its alrd 8.15 am!
then rush2 to the toilet...
i was a lil sick.
siap2 and all..
wear formal..
reach class alil late..
but lucky cikgu kind enuf to mark my attendance.
selamat!
then yes...today was my presentation!
felt like i've done a lil better presenting.
well..its not only me..muiling too...
she kinda improve alot..=)
thumbs up=))
then as usual..i laugh and laugh over small little thing.!
then lecturer told us she like our presentation
*YEAY!*
and we will get a good pass!!
hoorayy!
then i was coughing and was feeling kinda sick..
and the rest kurang asam..stand far2 from me..hahha..
H1N1 spread!hahahaa
naz was sweet to teman me to buy the foodstuff n drink.
ate roast chix salad and sourplum iceblend.
sedap!!ate outside classroom..
*namira,we sit beside HERO tau!!!:p
the rest were like,ehk,hero uh,hero uh..sayang sei namira takde!
i'm actually craving for coffeebean salad!
i think it cost ard 10bucks per salad.
add chicken!
mummy!lets go again coffeebean by the salad!
i'm craving for it..*insert sad face*
Then after tat went to hubby house after much pujuk from him..
to collect something..and wait for him to bath..
the first thing tat he say when he say was,
wah!!macam office girl lah!hahaha..
and he like it when i wear like this!.-_-'
his brother n sis was at home..
then abg dia balik then he say..
ehk,dia rupanya..ingatkan mana punya reporter..-_-'
hahahaha
then we went off to somewhere..spend our time together..
i was being a big baby..mentang2 sakit lah kan..
amik kesempatan over him..hehehe..
hahaha..cos asek merengek2 ask him to massage me lah,nilah tulah..
he was being soo switt and layankan all my karenah..thanks dear,tats y i love you!
well..kata sakit..mesti nak manja2 sikit sey..
then was feeling effing weak and cold,he hug me n let me sleep on him..
his hug make me feel much warmer n his massage make me feel better..
=))
our initial plan was actually to go swimming today,
but have to cancel it cos my swimming costume my sis kidnap,
and she were off to Malacca since last sat..she will be back tomorrow afternoon.
she actually this time ajak me..
but too bad,school is the halangan..=(
she promised me some stuff to bring homee..
had to sleep alone for 5 days..
sometimes feel lonely,but soemtimes macam best pulak;p

so after that it started to rain,bb sent me to the bustop cos i'm heading to mum house kejap
then mummy gave me some cash for me to spend on...
camwhore around wif my lil minah*the kitten*
and she seems to love Victoria Secret Bag like i do!
cos everytime there's a new victoria secret bag,she will play around with it,sleep inside it..jump and explore inside it.
and mummy also love victoria secret..
so she's always being kind to share/give me the stuff that she bought.
original per...siapa taknak..!
and currently..i'm so in love wif tat bag..but its better use for special occasion cos of the shiny silver surface..gonna pinjam from her time raya!=)

then ya..went back home..sleep cos i was feeling effing weak.
then daddy and maid went out to aunt house..
they brought home mee goreng!!! and some malacca stuff cos my nenek dah balik dulu..
my sis besok baru balik..!
hmm...kinda still feel sick right now..
feverish and coughing...=(
we all miss namira cos macam class tak kecoh sangat.
Get well soon tau NAMIRA MOK!
bsok kalau bleh datang too!
then we see how tomorrow k?
welll...thats a long essay i've done above..hahaha!
goodnight!

YOurs Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-24T02:35:00.003+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGHHH!!!SOMEONE HELP ME.!I DONT FREAKING HAVE A CLINCAL POSTING AND MY NAME ISNT IN ANY OF THE HOSPITAL!!i'm freaking stressed up now.!the whole class have hospital posting..BUT I DONT HAVE!
DID NYP FORGET ABOUT ME??!
*BIG SAD FACE*

2009-07-23T01:02:00.002+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

Hello babies...

hmm...........

well...

kinda bored and stress right now..

stress cos i have bio practical test on friday...

bored cos my head doesnt seems to want to absorb anything right now..

I guess tomorrow i'll cramped like hell..

if i have alot2 time.

This morning,i OVERSLEPT!

shit man!yes2..yesterday the whole night i spend it doing that damn homework

which due this morning,first lesson!

i was having fever too btw.=(

so i burnt midnight oil and decide to cheong through.

Stress like hell yesterday night doing it which i end up sleeping at 3:30am.

So i was semangat2 uh bila dahbis the homework...*LIKE FINALLY!!-_-'*

so put my alarm clock at 6 am.

class start at 8am.

And before i sleep,hubby did called me up just to hear my voice before he sleep.

So when he called,as usual i remind him to wake me up at 6am.

So ya..sleep2..

then sheok dream uh..

skalik i was awoken by shakila*my group member*

phone call asking me whether i'm attending class or not..

and with that i immediately look at the time and to my horror,

ITS ALREADY 8:15am!!!DAMNIT!!

i almost shouted out loud!aaargh!

like wasted kan!!whole night doing that homework and in the end,you miss that particular class!!

HAIYA!

lucky she help to tell teacher about the situation n she agree to letme passup when i come to school.

FUHH!!

then i check my handphone,dear forgotten to call in to wake me up

and MY STUPID HANDPHONE ALARM CLOCK DIDNT WORK!

or...I was sleepmoving or something when i off the alarm.

I swear i dont remember waking up to off it!

haiya.!

so yalah...thats the 'interesting incident' of today.

other than that school was normal.

Ended like ard 3pm..

Stayed in school library with farhat and shakila to do self-study.

Farhat do homework then terus tengok movie/dvd.-_-'

me n shakila baru semnagat2 nk belajar..

then skalik i saw quite alot of NEW SEVENTEEN magazine.

end up..half the time,read up the magazine.and get something right shakila?

then after that spend the few balance hour to study bio..

but dont really absorb alot uh..

but oklah..

then after that...went to work.

ohh!btw..The free shuttle bus pergi sembawang shopping centre

now have new pickup point

which is at yishun blk 101,Blk 773,Blk 228 and MRT itself.

yeay!!near my house!more convenient nak pergi keje!

weeee~~

Nomore Pickup point at Khatib Mrt.=(

so it will be difficult to go work from mom's house.=(

There's also pickup point at the industrial area..not sure of the name though,:p

hmm...

i guess thats all for today?

ohh...

hmm...

justnow while i was alone...

suddenly i was wondering

what if today was my last day of my life..

Will i be prepared to leave my life?

What if..i was crossing a road..suddenly a car just hit me...?
*touch wood*

Life will change in a split second

and what if....the accident really change me..

physically and mentally..

will hubby still be loving me like he does right now?

will my friends still be in contact with me?

will my family still be loving me?

what if i lost my memory.

will they try their best to help me or would they just give up on me?

hmm...

just pondering,...

and next..

about boyfie...

i suddenly started wondering...

What if boyfie had come in to my life much2 earlier..

especially the time when i used to have a crush on him..

will i still be loving him right now?

will he still be loving me the way he did like right now?

as you know..crush come and go..

but true love stays forever..

What i feel right now with him is the most deepest feeling i ever had in my life.

I suddenly feel emotionally attach to him.

Its like..i cant imagine my life without him..

he is just part of my daily life now and can imagine if things change.

I'm like super comfortable around him like how i am with my family member thus making me more deeply attached to him.

I just cant imagine if one day he have to go..

its only 1 year 2 months soon..

yes..you might say.,..its too early to say this kind of thing but the connection is so deep that i,myself dont really know how it had started.

Its like...we just clicked well right now.

I hope this he will be the first and the last guy in my life whom i can call my hubby.

cos..i love you.

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-20T00:43:00.005+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

Hello my babies...

hahaha..so hows's my day?

hmm...something interesting happen when i was werking closing shift justnow at civic starbuck..

yeap..i was doing attachment there n i'm not loving it.

i prefer my own starbuck sembawang..

peace and calm.

No crowd.

I dun wanna werk there again.

pls3!

later i tell u y..

hahaha..

So..ya..

hahaha..now i'm gonna tell u wat happen..

just now...while i was doing counter,serving cutomer,

it happen to be titi,halijah friend if i'm nt wrong n her bf n fren..

so ya...after i took their order n called out the drink...

then suddenly i saw something furry moving behind them..

i thought it was just my imagination..

but when i look again..

then i realise that it wasnt just my imagination..

it was a..

CAT.

yes2!super adorable!cream in colour...

I was like..

wth is a cat doing inside starbuck..

and futhermore...

THE STARBUCK IS LOCATED AT LEVEL 2!

u cn only go up using escalator or lift!!

I wonder how e cat goes up...

USING ESCALATOR???!

hahahaha...!

the cutest thing is that..

the cat can sumore wonder around inside the starbuck...

Looking for seats??

ahahahahaha!

then it came up to some customer..

and like rub2 against them...

cute sia!!

some customer goes..

aww...so cute..!

haha..

but then...

after that it goes on around n scratch on the chair!

so naughty!grr!

but its damn adorable lah..!

then i asked my partner werking on shift

whether should carry it out or just let it come n go by itself..

Kata customer seyyy!

weee~

so that partner told me to just called the cat out n put it outside..

so i went up to the kitty and then try to called it out..

it just answer me back..

*meow*

Translated=*i wanna order drink can?*

hahahahaha..

k.k.

kiki..lame.

so ya...after that just put it outside..

then i went in...

i look again outside..

dah takde..

abeh tau2..

a security guard came..

asking me where the cat is..

and then i was like wondering where the cat goes..

then i realise..

it went back again..n was under the table..

-_-"

hahaha..

ok..this is the 1st time i ever known..

Starbuck is so popular that even a cat came in to visit.

-_-'

hahaha!

but..

well..certainly i wont wanna werk at civic anymore..

rather work at my own store.

or other place.

yes.i broke down on shift

pressure uh..

stress.

and because of something else..

only my manager know why..

but ya..

am ok back now..

=))

back to e cheerful barista.:p

if i'm at my own store.

btw..

bb just called justnow..

complaining he's sick..

n he's in camp..

demam..haish!

i'm worried sick sey..

he doesnt even have his meal..

n dey have to put him on drip?

haish..

if only he's outside..

atleast i can take care of him

or make him some soup..

he's having high fever..

38.7 degree..

and some of camp mate are also falling sick!

double the worry!

told him to have alot of rest and eat his medicine..

tapi lain yang dia cakap..

*smile smile*

sempat!but...haishh

bby..please take good care of urself k dear.

i hope dey will release u..

at least i can take care of u..

*chey2..kata nurse kiki kan...*

k.k.FUTURE NURSE.

baru 1st semester sey..

haha..

dgar2 this year takde attchment for this year batch..=(

so sad.

ohh!

btw..

Next few week..
ada event..

for stage art dance n drama..

my makeup artist member was suppose to makeup them..

but..

i've only attend a few lesson.

so i have fear uh..

belum confident uh nk makeup pat muka orang.

muka sendiri jek lah tau..

n got presentation for my group in class.

so takleh..

but the following week for National day event there's another event.

and this time I'm going!

ade letter of excuse to from class.

we had a booth in South canteen.

tak sabar!!

1st event uh..

heard there's a Major production oso coming along..

isit?

not prepared sangat.

baru year 1 sey...baru join sei..

hahaha..

and this saturday..

the makeup artist team gonna go SHOPPING..!

for Makeup...skola sponsor duit.!

but for e makeup stuff uh.

i think its at Cosmoprof.

The School of Makeup.

kan?hembus jelah.

well..i'm still in love wif my cca eventhough i skip some lesson.;p

last 2 week dorang ajar hairstyling.

haha..

and ohh..

this coming bulan puasa oso dah ada activity..

gonna do some volunteering work..

dapat pahala kan..

=))

cant wait for all the event above.

But most importantly...

Exams are coming.

and you know what?

i'm gonna be a good2 girl this week..

and study like hell.

squeeze everything i can in my brain.

will put everything aside.

thanks fad n atika for e advice.

gonna buck up!

weee~~

love you guys!

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-19T15:56:00.002+08:00

Sometimes..
i just need to take a break in life,
take a deep breath...
and slowly exhale all the sorrowness i'm facing.
Its never exciting to be in my life..
broken halfway apart.
Floating on an aimless float.
i just couldnt close my eyes.
cos once i did.
everything will be the end.
I'm just lucky to be loved by a guy.
Knowing that no matter how we fuss n fight..
he will never stop loving me..
my family?
dont ask..
the pictures broken.
i'm now floating aimlessly,
waiting for someone to guide me through bridge.
The bridge that are made up of a piece of thread.
Any moment..
i might trip n fall..
if i'm not careful.
and thats the end.
Being a second child..
it add on to the suffering.
Most of the time...
attention were given to the 1st and 3rd..
the 2nd one are always left alone.
Be independence..
is what they say..
but..
whats the use?
of having a life..
when u know..
from small..u never really get the attention...
but u only get to watch..
and sigh.,
haish..
i really wish to fast forward my life to the future.
to just be successful in work and get married.
So i wont have to be floating aimlessly...
Anymore.
Muhammad Yazri Bin Ahmad.
Thanks for loving me more than everything else in the world.
You're my only pillow to a real world.
Please dont take that away.
cos..in my life now.
You were the most important thing in the world.
You are like a brother,protective over me.
You are like a mother,nagging me when i did a mistake.
You are like a father,guiding me through the world.
You are like a sister,listening to my problems.
and finally you are like a husband..
Making sure i have it all and never stop loving me.
thats why i love you.
cos u gave me what i never get.
fully.
I love you.
Thats y i need you in my life.
Please dont ever say goodbye.
cos i need u more than anything else in the world.
Thanks dear.

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-17T22:54:00.006+08:00

I know i have been slacking...like ALOT!
Damn it...i just cant seems to be paying attention to my studies..
its kinda hopeless..cos the stress that i have makes me just distracted.
Work.family problem.love.tiredness.late night sleeping.personal problems..
it all end up to one thing..
STRESS.
yes...if you were me then you will know what i feel.
i know exams after exams are coming in.
but i'm not prepare for the war.
i havent even open up my book for revision.
whenever i tried to pay attention at lecture..i ended up sleeping.
or cabot.
Sometimes i have my reason for not going.
yes..work.boyfie.tired.not really interested.
i'm only interested in psychology lecture.
haiya...
i know my grades gonna suffer.
thus making the sponsorship thingy close to impossible.
aaaargh!its not that i wanna do it on purpose..#
i just dont have the mood to study!haishh..i'm so sad..=(
if i dont wake up now..i'm going to suffer later on in life..=)
SHIKIN!buck up!wake up from your lala land..!

haha..currently i have no mood to do anything nw.
nothing interesting happen at school.
except for the fact that i have been laughing non-stop in school.
like...when i laugh..confirm contagious..
followed by fatin who will laugh after i laugh..!hahahaha
and when she laugh..i laugh again..see how the cycle goes?
hahaha..oh!btw..just now i took this malaysian name quiz or application at facebook.
u noe wat my name is?
BEDAH!lol!!sounds like makcik2 sia!
no offence to those who have that name..!
ohh...
btw..just now i watch this dvd on my laptop..
title "Apa kata hati"
its about a cheerful,pretty,optimistic lady who worked as a fashion designer is tested with something that all woman want
that is...to read guys mind.
But she found it as a curse
when she keep on hearing more bad things rather than good things.
With that gift also,she became more confused with choosing her life partner.
and because of that...she have no choice but to follow what her heart have to say..

watch it...its a sweet story actually!
if you are wondering what guys are thinking..
then watch it.
=))

well..dahlah..
i think sampai disini saje my entry for today..
dono what to write anymore..
ahaha..=))
selamat malam...

YOURS SINCERELY,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-16T21:09:00.003+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

Our Laptop movie date

woohoooo~

macam sweetkan?

hahaha..so yeah..yest..have e blast of time wif him

and we spend every little time that we have together..

eventhough it was a short one but it was meaningful uh..

I borrowed him my laptop for a day yest so he can do whatever he want with it...then today went back to take back

SO yeah..Lets talk bout today MORNING 1st...

So THIS morning..had to force myself to wake up at 6am+++

so as usual...i was already late..

so i was practically RUNNING to class all the way...!

imagining my teacher face nagging at me if i'm late made me run even faster!

and when i reach the 4th level ...to my Horror..

i saw my classmate pressing the lift to go down..

then ask them...they say..THERE'S NO PRACTICAL LAB today...!!WTF!so much for running 2.4!!hahah..takpe2..

*this tshirt made my boobs look bigger than normal -_-'*

So yeah....after school...went to meet bb...walk all the way

from yishun mrt to his house..its a cool day..and the flashback of the secondary school years played back in my mind..at first wanted to meet bb at 719..but then he sms-ed saying that his mom has been asking bout me and asking me to come..then i told him..macam masih malu2 cikit..and this is what he replied.."eleh..mak i,mak u jugak!"

bluek uh:p

hahahaa...then reach his house..his mom alrd masak kan beehoon goreng..lil bit spicy but NICE!sedapp oi!!i like!

then his precious little sister,baby, was doing homework..

so i helped her out..and he called me a teacher..-_-'

hahaha..then after that..hubby n i send his little sister to school...

quite cute lah his sister!then we feeling2 jalan2 together near yishun sec..berbual about the changes in yishun sec and all...then his mom called my hp and told us to kirim belikan penyapu..

then this clever hubby of mine..dah pegi kedai jual penyapu..abeh nak belik penyapu untuk kebas air punya...u noe...those colourful2 one that they use in toilet..!

i was laughing and laughing all the way..

pandai sangat suami i...

HAHAHAHA..

then went back to his house..

talk to his mom about life n all that..

*and about makcik yang jual keropok that bring 'kakak' along*

*i will talk bout tis on the NEXT topic*

about his bro...all that...

then ya..then after that we decide to spend our precious time just the 2 of us together and we decide to go to our normal place and then have a laptop-movie date..

like sweet like dat..

watch 'apa kata hati' or something like dat..

feeling2 jugak dia..then after that..

told him i feel sick..and lemah..

rested and then baring jap dkat dia..while he sayang2 me to sleep..

told him *5 mins* padehal2...more than that.

told him to kejot after 5 mins..but when i woke up..ask him why he never kejot me..

then he say nevermind..he wanna watch me sleep.-_-'

then dah bangun...he massage my badan for me....

it kinda relieve the tense muscle a lil better and then i felt much better and more relaxed after he massage..

aww...but if he's nt around..siape nak massage kan when i'm sick..=(

ohh!he really have strong big muscle arm now...like nice!

love it man!he kept showing off his muscle at me cos he know i like it..

action uh tu!

but...I loikeee!hehee..

then sadly..he had to book in camp ard 7pm like dat...

kinda both of us doesnt want to separate.

i suddenly feel so feeling2..

tat i cried..but he didnt catch that..

i told him i just was sleepy thats y eyes watery..

padehal..i just feel like i dont want us to separate..

well..its just my feeling..

like wat he say..

"whenever i feel sick,i feel like losing you alrd..."

haish..

so ard 5plus..he send me home..then he went to buy his things for camp..

NEXT..

then when i reach home..

after a few mins..

i received a phone call frm my aunt..

telling me to jaga2 and all and to not answer if makcik jual keropok.

and i asked her about it..she explain tat e makcik jual keropok is currently rounding singapore selling keropok n also at the same time bringing

'kakak cantik' wif her everywhere she go?

so if her customer refused to buy her keropok..

the 'kakak cantik' will go in ur house..

and then disturb..

another version of the story..

they say..when the makcik came to sell at ur house..

the moment u see her..

the kakak will pukau you and go in ur house..

and oso like make u blur2 and u will buy the keropok.

currently its at tampines and bedok area..

it have finish rounding jurong,wdland and all...

heard bout it?

everywhere i go i will hear about it.

even my auntie neigbour cousin dah kena..

wif it,.

like SCARY!

even yesterday when i go to northpt toilet..

the cleaner was talking about tis..

among all the rest of the cleaners..

and just nw..in msn...byk orang jugak told me they heard oso bout it..

i even stumbled through tis blog..

also about this...

nah..

here's the link:

http://10tinsardin.blogspot.com/2009/07/citer-hantu.html

i guess its the hot topic in singapore right now?

other than H1N1 lah...

ohh!its the new H1N1 lah kann...!

well...whatever it is..

if u see a makcik coming to ur house bringing keropok and she look...

weird.

just be careful.

YOURS SINCERELY,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-15T02:32:00.002+08:00

Hello babiess..
1st things 1st...
I PASSED MY NG TUBE Lab test!
sumpah i didnt really have confident in passing it..
cos i heard the lecturer testing uh will be super strict!!
but...it turn out...
ok!i even tried to make him laugh when he was testing me..
ketawa2 lagik..when i totally forgot the step.
cos i was super nervous lah sey..
so i pretend i was joking around wif the mannequin when things go wrong..
and i was like..
*talking to the lifeless manequin*
"please..please...'mr richard',dont give me problem..eat properly...pleaseee"
hahaha...so tak perlu..i know..hahaha..but i was super nervous lah sei when the things go wrong.
n i totally kanchiong alrd.
so i try to make jokes lah..
thanks god the lecturer is nice.
but the lecturer suke pilih orang sei...
eventhough i know i did alot of slight stupid mistake..
he gave clue and close one eye.
boleh ketawe2 lagik..
but he picked on some students..
and picked on the slightest mistake.
-_-'
but lucky..bila my part and kak aisyah part..
he was laughing around..
hmm....
-_-'
nvm...what is the most important thing is that..
he let me pass..eventhough i know i forget some points.
thanks god.thats the most important thing.
but i dont like the biasness part lah.

so ya...
other than that test..
school was sucha bored..
and my bag were kinda heavy than normal today!
errgh!!!shouldnt have brought the laptop charger today..
so all the way home.
i was reminding myself next time,if not important,dont bring laptop charger.
so it went smoothly in school.
no excitement or anything..
first thing in the morning,bb called me to wake me up..
at 6 plus..
he became my personal alarm clock..
so around 1 hour later..
he msg-ed me again..
and asked me where i am..
and i told him i baru jek bathing..
and this is what he say..
"aik..
abeh i kejot u siang2 uatpe?
Sembahyang suboh ke??!"

hahaahaha..
noted.
it was 1 hour after he woke me up..
honestly..
after he woke me up..
i walk to the toilet..
then i sit..the i sleep back again.
-_-'
hahahhaaaha.
whoopss!
for today only..!

hahhaa..
so ya...
oh..
btw..justnow..
in the train..
i was taking the train home..
so i entered the train lah..
then there was this 2 seriously minahrep..
but shorter n smaller than me..
with tattoos n shade.-_-'
keep on like turning and stare at me..
maybe trying to pissed me off?!
but..
i'm not a minah rep..
so instead of layan-ing them..
i just mind my own business..
i even attempt to want to smile back..
when they stare..just being friendly.
well..i'm just being nice.
or attempt to being nice..hehe
i'm not a minahrep like them..
quite a few time i notice them staring me up and down..
but..
who wanna layan them?
hahaha..i'm not a minahrep..
eventhough some people say i look like a minah..
but its just the matter of attitude.
that all of them know.
i wasnt even classified as 1.
right?
well..thats all for today..
kinda have a tiring day..
up for school tomorrow.!
goodnighteyy!
=)

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-14T00:55:00.002+08:00

Can someone take over my stress please?
i hated life.i love him.other than that.i hated life.
i'm no longer the good girl.no longer the one who pays attention to studies.
wth!shikin wake up!

2009-07-13T01:51:00.005+08:00

The view from the place we stand...
there were unexpected firework before we caught tis pic..
didnt manage to catch the firework picture though..
in the state of shock n tgah feeling2 romantic..wif e 'aww-ing' n kissing..:p
n my camera were caught in between sumthing e bag.

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

So...how was my day yesterday...

It was AWESOME!

hehehe..its like those unexpected romantic scene...

i want more of it pleaseee!

hehehe...

so...ya...tis is what happen..yesterday..in the morning..

dear suddenly msg-ed me and asked me out to penisular plaza..cos he wanna buy something there...

and i was suppose werking closing shift...so ya..

got loads and loads of time..

and since at the same time his Ns friends was also going there so...yeah...met them up and there have all our dinner together..they were quite funny though..hahaha..kept on smiling jek since i'm still very paisei...

so yeah...so we walked around penin..

nuthing interest me cos its mostly boy's...

and then he bought some shirt n all..

then his fren were busy trying on some clothes...

and so..while waiting for his fren..

we walked around and all..

then we wandered off..

we planned to go to esplanade..

but while we were walking there...

its only a few mins walk..

it started to drizzle..so we tried to brisk walk..but unfortunately,in within a few seconds...

the rain start to get heavier and we had no choice but to find a shelter..

so....

we ran off to this shelter...near esplanade...

but across the road..

then it turn out to be...

a deserted guard house...

beside a pathway to go in the church..

so the moment we reach there..

under the shelter..

in the rain...

Suddenly..

he just started to hug me...

n...the firework started!

..directly infront of us...across the street.

It was really unexpected!

really..

both of us were like..

WOW!

Its a moment that i'll never forget...

and then he start kissing me..

aww...

like...Wow!

so swit gitu lah...!

then...

suddenly he was like saying this...

'we're in a church btw...'

hahaha...its like...whooops!

tak sengaje...we sheltered in a pathway near church..takpelah..atleast we're nt officially in a church..haha...

so ya..

while waiting for the rain to stop..

we camwhore-ed...

taking all sorts of pic..

the scenery...

the puddle that was forming...*his idea*

under the rain...

both of us were wet...

but..it doesnt really matter..

its the time we spent together that matters..

so yeah...

after the rain had became slightly lighter...

we walked back..to find a place to sit...

then we decide to catch a movie..

he wanted to watch 'obsessed'...

but...

due to the shortage of time...

we decide to make it another day..

then after that..

both of us decide to just sit down somewhere..

and talk about our life...

then somehow..along the way..

something that he say..

my tears start to drop..

when i think about it...

it wasnt he's or my fault though...

its just something bout the past..

the time when both of us were single..

well...like what he say..

we'r in the future..no longer the past..

n what he knows now is that..

he love me...

and no one else..

thats the end of the story...

we talk things out..

by...

sms-ing...

yes...hehee..

i was sitting beside him..

but we are not in talking terms for a few mins..

then after both of us apologise in the sms...

he hugged me...*finally*hmmph!;p

and said sorry.

funny though..

he taught me some terms..

and told me that i'm the 1st girl he never lay a hand on..or almost lay a hand on..

as in..violence..

hmm...

not tat sure about his past though...

then..

so he sent me off...

next week..

he had to be confined for one week..

as in..had to stay in..but..

yeah...he's being sweet..

just now he msg-ed me..

told me he's gonna take mc..

on one day tis week..

so we can spend time together..

aww..

well..end of story..

misunderstanding makes us understand each other better..

and we're gonna reach 1 year 2 mth soon..

wow...time flies so fast...

i love him..

ans thats end of story..

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-11T01:47:00.003+08:00

Secondary school pictures..*reminicing*-sec 4

My O-level art

awww...

I miss all of the above...

especially when i was in sec 3 and also sec 4...

the most memorable things ever...

yes2..i miss my drawing,*i know its a lil sux ;D*

i miss especially my form teacher,n my fav art teacher...

and not forgetting.MY FRIENDS N BESTIES!

i miss my uniform..

They say *nurse-lookalike uniform*

And coincidenty...Now I'm wearing the actual nursing uniform..

and its BLUE and White too!

hahah...

the 1 which i pandai2 lipat2 and all..

the turn out to be bulgy at the stomach

Looking back,aww...

i miss being in uniform...!

not having trouble on what to wear on the next day and all..

well...hahaha

there are sweet n sour memories..

Wondering whatsup wif all this pic?

i dunno...

i suddenly came across those pictures...

and it reminds me of my sec school day..

ahhaha...

i miss it so much!

hmmm..

so where have i been this few days..

i'm currently at mum's house right now,

Just now we went to grandma house to discuss some issues..

its really sad when things goes this way..

well...now..i think almost everyone is gonna support us,siblings,to go through this together..

for now...we really cant do anything about it..

Guess daddy is really falling in love.

haish.And my family is falling apart.

really breaking apart..

all because of One Person.

Its not tat we havent broken apart,we already did..

mummy had long gone separate ways..

But she's always there to look and entertain us..

became our bestfriend..made us smile..

let us sleepover her house..

gave us the attention we need.

but...We are not living with her.

Since Mummy & daddy had already broken off since the last few years..

we are now almost living in a dead house..

where you can only hear the sound of cricket...or shall i say lizard.

yes..we have daddy..

but he's in love.

wif a person tat nobody like.

*o'h!she's married*

and daddy paid her to take care of us..

but it turn out the other way round.

not us..but..

and he revert the attention to her.

while we...

just seek other's.

but..we're under his custody.

haish..

i wonder what will happen to my siblings in future to come.

we are like surviving our self.

our own ways.

and it all happen suddenly..

the stress of not living together as a family is one things...

mummy then no longer live wif us..the tears are never wipe..

then the next thing we know..

someone took daddy away from us..

he's physically wif us..

but mentally and emotionally..

he wasnt there anymore.

we are like breaking apart from him.

we are no longer a happy family..

everyone is breaking apart.

and honestly..

i hate it.

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-09T01:15:00.003+08:00

hahhahahaa...Dress or pantsuit better for me?

i think dress nicer rite?cume...its a lil obscene..*hahahahaha,namira,u know wat i meant rite?!*

hahahah..better delete it uh!

k.k...ni lah budak excited...

hahahha..i just received my uniform that was ordered last months..

hahaha..macam excited lahh..cos dah lama tak akai uniform rite..

then bile dah dapat uniform,dah semangat nak gi attachment!

hahhaa...k.k..MACAM FAHAM!

exam pun belum,nk gi attachment..-_-'

n i hope e news about no attchment tis yr is wrong!

*cross finger*

so ya..hahaha....

ohhh,,

hows today?

well.Normalll...

bb was being so swit n called me every morning to be my wakeup call..

eventhough he's in army..

he still remember to call me...aww..

cute wakeup call..!

So ya...i wasnt practically rushing off to school.

cos i dun want to be kanchiong like yesterday..

all the whole day like goes wrong..-_-'

no definition..

hahah..

Well...the presentation went well...

and the best part...

The teacher like it so muchh!

awww..all my hard work paid off!

hehehe...

but...sadly...the only thing that made me sad today was tat..

the Nursing lab theory test..

i hope i pass..

eventhough the multiple choice was easy but short answer question..

i got leave some blank cos there's not enough time..

-_-'

i know..

so yup2...

nuthing particularly exciting today..

just kinda sleepy rite nw..

mayb gotta sleep early..

toodless!

sweet dreamm!

*winks*

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

2009-07-08T03:30:00.000+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

*finally i can upload picture!!!*

Fuhhh!hahah..Finally i blogged again!

cos boring uh cannot upload picture..tats y i wait till can..:p

i have alot2 stories to tell seii!

hahah..only tat i dun have enuf time to blogged!

lalalala~

SO where have i been this few days..

haha..

So finally school have started on Monday..

Eventually..yesterday*refering to monday*

so..and its the day of submission for the 1000 words essay.!

the night before,i was actually burning my midnight oil to just do the editing cos

instead of 1000 word,i terlajak until 1400 words xp

hahhaha..n its very very heart wrenching to cancel out the words cos...

i dont really know which words i should cancel out cos everything like important like dat...

kalau tersalah cancel,skalik its the important one..kan sedih tu!

so ya...finally finish ard 12 plus or 1 plus am..

thanks to arisa,*which eventually really really saved my life!*

*starbucks k?;P*

for printing out the essay the last minute!

and yeah..collected on mon morning..

Seeing my friends kanchiong face when they say that the school bookshop printer is out of black and white ink

really made me feel bersyukur that i have printed it earlier!

thanks really really alot arisa!

So 1st day of school after about 3 weeks of holiday was sucha excitement..

but everyone seems to be stressed out.

cos of the e-learning thingy!

n....TEST!!!TEST and more TEST!

Yes.!!On monday morning itself,we found out that we HAVE A MANDARIN TEST!

which carries 50% of the whole thing!SHIT MAN!

and they only told us about it in the morning!yes!monday morning!

so.....guess what?!nobody even study it yet!

Nobody were prepared for it!

yes...in the mandarin room..

Most ppl have a 'give-up' face.

and for me...I DUN EVEN KNOW KNOW WHAT IS EAT?!

i only know in mandarin the number 1-10!

and some super simple words.

hahahaha...so you can guess..

50 questions of multiple choice..

about 5-10 only i know..

the rest?!tikam2 uh!

hahhahahaha..*i follow my instinct for the answer!*
Thenn...lucky for the ICA mandarin presentation,

me n my group member have prepared for it!

but i still read from script uh..!

hahaha..but ya,.

eventually,laughter took over me..

every few words,i laugh!hahahah..cos i know how terrible my mandarin is.,

very the slank!

like a chinese trying to say malay word like dat...

but we passed!cos the teacher understand what we r trying to act out!

its about a patient having some stomach problems...

and like dat,.,

"Dey sia wo hui gei ni, ni de yao wu. Wo shi Shikin. Chey ke shi wo de tong shi Nazira. Ha hui, gen ni jiang,/ ni shu yao zuo shen me."-tis is some part of the it..hahaha.

weee~~~

and the comment for our group?

cute!cos kita asik2 ketawe ehk?!

but i think...oklah...

hahhaha!

So yeah....

Then after that we slack2 then group meeting then

school ended.*my meeting wif the manager was postponed*

so i went to meet hubby at Northpt since his Book-in was forwarded to tuesday night*

and we have our dinner together

the i was actually supposed to study..but..

but cant really concentrate,..

so in the end..

hahaha..we ended up talking about our life,relationship

then he tried to teach me mandarin..

tapi i was laughing my ass off..hahahaa...

we were super kecoh!haha..

then2..coincidently..

*i have a feeling he sneak and look at my 'diary' date plan*

but he really really look like he wasnt lying..haha..

but i'm not sure if he did lah..

he started to talk about going on a real date together..

not just some dinner date..or lepak-ing..but

like spend the whole day together at some island..

or go cycling together..

or swimming...*its been a long time since we gone swimming together*

and both of us were thinking about going to Pahlawan beach and watch sunset together..aww...

and loads of idea..

so..yesterday!we simply just spend all the time that we can afford together!

then came today...

K.k..this is the SUAY DAY!

wanna know wat happen?

read on...

So practically...

yesterday night..

after he send me home

n so i practicaly open up my laptop..

*i was thinking of editing and then send my powerpoint slide to the rest*

but while waiting for the laptop to start up...

i was just thinking of closing my eyes..

but then tertido...

on the laptop itself!

yes2..!

sampai terlupe nak msg budak tu..!

hahah..lucky he wasnt the one who cepat naik angin..

he msg me...then i did replied jap then was still damn tired..

so i slept again!at the laptop!hahah...i was just thinking of snoozing for 10 min..

then suddenly i was woken up by handphone message tone..

dear just msged me...so i was sleepily about to reply his msg and then when i looked back at the time,TERPERANJAT OI!

it was 8AM in the morning!!!

walaoweii!!snooze 10 minute jadi 10 hour sia!

LUCKY HUBBY SAVED MY LIFE WITH HIS MSG!

just at the right time!i didnt tell him to wake me up n he rarely msged me soo early in e morning but it was our strong chemistry/fate that made him wanna msg-ed me!at the right time pulak tu!

fuh!!i love you dear!

if not...

seriously..i die cos i forgot to put alarm!

Next story...

So i was practically almost late for school..

so i were running out of the house..

SKALIK!when i were running,my shoe suddenly slipped off and was behind me already...

like i was leaving the shoe like dat...

PAISEI giler sia!!

so i have to run back*i was LATE ALREADY BY THEN*

wore back my shoe n runnnnnn to the bus stop!

thenn...

cun2..the bus came...

so i was like running to the bus...

then SKALIK!

again!!a BAD LUCK!

you know why??!

cos when i was about just lifting my leg to the door step,

THE BUS CLOSED THE DOOR!

and my leg was STUCK AT THE DOOR!

WTF SIA!!

the driver terus immediately open back the door

and that time i wished i had a plastic bag over my head!!

Like SERIOUSLY!

malu giler sia!!!

*Like what happen to NAMIRA,but hers is head,mine is LEG!*

*SMACK FOREHEAD & COVER FACE*

so ya...

school was a stressful 1 today...

i dono why...but i feel stressed up lah..

then after that hubby say he wanna meet me one last time before he book-in..

This was when the last suay part for today happen...

You know wat??

so...after school i took the mrt to yishun then took 859 to his house...

So after the bus arrive..

i confident only tapped my card..

but the card doesnt even make a sound,i tapped2 again..but cannot..

THEN TO MY HORRORI REALISE

...

you know what???

I TAPPED THE WRONG CARD!

and Worst still,you know what card i tapped??!

ITS MY NYP IDENTITY CARD!

sial lahh!!!ahhHHAhAHHAAHAHA..

THE QUEUE BEHIND ME WAS DAMN LONG..

THE driver was already looking at me like he wanna laugh it out!!

sialllah!paiseii giler siaa!

wtf!!!

i quickly apologise n tap my original ezlink card!

then i just almost wanted to laugh!

but to cover malu...i takeout my hp and pretended to msg sum1..

ahahhahahaahha.PAISEI DOK!!

so we met at his house,so while he prepare2 his stuff,i was talking to his mom...

then he curik2 kiss me when both of us were at the kitchen..*whoops!*

then i accompany him buy his stuff and then i teman and send him to his bustop and there off he go...

he actually doesnt wanna go back..

hahaahaaha..BUT no choice seyy!

sedih...

well...

i guess i have to wait a few more days till i can see him...

haish...

and the worst thing was that...

I will have to suffer like this for 2 years!

wtf!wtf!wtf!

ONLY CAN MEET HIM ON WEEKEND!

for 2 fucking years!

cos apparently,his posting out..

result was that...

he have to remain at the SAME CAMP..

SELARANG camp!

JAUH SAK!

and he was the marksmen or whatever name dey call it..

and so monday to friday...he will be in camp..-_-'!!

GERAM JEKK...!

but nevermind..neverthelessly..

think positively...

we can still meet eventhough its only for 2 days per week..

well...

absence makes the heart grows fonder..!

right?hmm....

well...for now...

i actually have to study for tomorrow test!

NURSING LAB theory test..

NR 1091 test...

but....look at the time now..its 3.30 am..

n i have not even open up the book..

and PRESENTATION TOO!

haaaaaaaaaishhhhhhhh...!

n i have to wake up at 6 tomorrow..

dear said he will wake me up..

haishh...

i'm so fucking stressed up rite nw..!

aaaaaaarrrgghhhh...

....

wake me up from this NIGHTMARE PLEASEE!!

YOURS SINCERELY,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-06T00:35:00.003+08:00

*hope you don't mind me kidnapping this picture cos this pic very nice:P*

Happy Birthday kak nasreen!!

Thanks for being there all the time when i need you,

when i need a shoulder to cry on,listening to my problems and guiding me with my life.

All your words does make sense and you're like a big sister and a best friend to me.

Thanks for comforting me when i have a fight wif yazri and hearing my woes about him.

Thanks for making me not awkward when i have to face his cousin n family members since you know them better.
I really appreciate your effort and your kind advice about life,love and NURSING!

hehe...

we both have a lots of things in common.

For example,both of us are Nyp Nursing student.

*you graduated though;p*

You were my future kakak in law*last long kay?*

as what yazri & yazid cousin say...

"dua2 menantu Nurse sey"

hehe....

your problems are what i've faced along time ago.

I hope you can tabahkan hati with all the Ups & Downs of your relationship with yazid.

*or should i call him abg yazid since i called you kak nas?!;p*

Your love is soo deep for him,dun ever let go k?

stay strong...everything happen for a reason.

I really envy you cos you're really a strong woman!

i dun ever want to lose you cos youre the bestest kakak n bestfriend tat i have!

Dont forget me k?

cos you made me who i am today..

eventhough we kenal just few months or a year?!

but you were always there for me when i need you.

dont ever go k?

thanks for everything...!

Happy birthday pretty lady!

Yours Sincerely,

Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-05T03:01:00.004+08:00

MY MAN IS BACKK!!
oh,,,oh!!
there's 3 new partners in starbucks sembawan!
who are they??
i wanna knoww!!

and ohhh!
see this

Siti completed the quiz "Which color best suits your personality?" with the result You are Pink! .
You are pink! You are a fun loving, bubbly person. You love your friends, you love your family, you love just about everything! You are probably often described as "cute", and you like it that way. You are usually a little superficial, you don't really like to take things deeper. You can definately have a bit of a temper, but you get over things quickly too. Your relationships are based on fun and adventure. You are a good mix of white and red - passionate and a little lusty, but with an innocent charm. You may be a little spoiled, but that's okay with you. You are probably pretty secure with who you are. You are energetic, but not overly so (like reds, yellows, and oranges). You don't mind giving in to other people sometimes. You like being in the spotlight, and being recognized for your accomplishments. You love spending time with your friends. In fact, you probably hate being away from them. Being alone is not something you enjoy at all. Your friends know that with you, they will always be loved and havea great time. You, in a nutshell: Cute, bubbly, happy, a bit of a diva, friendly, confident, loving, fun. PINK!.

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TRUE!!99.9% describe me n character!:p

2009-07-04T05:30:00.003+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.
ouch!
i envy those couple out there.!
those in trains,in bus..on the street...
in starbucks.ouch!
where's my man??!
come back home plss...
like what my friend say,half of myself isnt really there eventhough my whole body was right there..
he say..at pulau tekong ke?!
yes!yes!!
*sad face*

Quote of the day
" if a guy sticks to a gerl for 1 year ... espc when yall are teenagers.. he realli love u"

well..this is what my friend told me during our msn chat n i find it..Somehow...right..

2009-07-03T13:14:00.009+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

Haish...some people...this is life...
Well..gonna explain some clear fact here ...
Me n jaja are still friends but are not that close...
we are friends...i acted the way i acted with the rest of my friends.
Last time i love to go to her blog as the same wif going to other friends blog.
Her life are just interesting..
yes..Sometimes i do drop by her journal(she was e one who updated the link when she changed blog)
and sometimes...she do drop by my blog..

Let me be clear with you.
yes..you..*in case you get the wrong idea again and hatetag me again*
I have been friends with jaja since i'm in sec 2,they were a sweet couple and i find jaja nice to talk to..like a big sis..
i think jaja is a cool person...thats why i'm friend with her cos she's
friendly and nice..not the minah type..
and when yazri and jaja broke up...
I was still happily in a relationship with another guy...
yes..i do admit that i used to have a crush on yazri..
but as you know crush come and go..
I think they brokeup on 2006,if i'm not wrong..
I wasnt even involve in it...
Fyi...Yazri doesnt know me yet that time...
he only know i'm e girl who contacted jaja and also me as just another yss school mate..
as what i have said...i was attach that time..
but it was just a short one...
On year 2007,yazri was already attached with another girl..
So u guys wanna know how i get to know yazri?
Yes...it started when Yazri start contacting me when he broke up with that girl..
We started as friend...i'm not expecting more than that...
i just see him as a friend..and i know he's jaja ex..
so i dont consider anything..
ohya...i was having a crush on someone else already that time...
Yazri n me became sms partner...all the way through 2007 and then 2008...
..
towards the ending of 2007..he started sending me the sweet messages,...
yes..i do admit that i did fall back again for him..
and love cant be control ok?
he filled up my empty days..while i filled him
something about him just attract me..
he was the 1st guy whom i have contacted for so long...since 2007 ok?!
From my view, he was a guy who is different from the rest of the guy i met.
he accept me as whoever i am..
he was like a teman tapi mesra...
but he did not make any move...
so i tot he was just expecting us to be just best friend...
he did sms me one msg...tat say i'm his bestest friend..
so i believed that n tried to moveon..
he still did sms me...but i wasnt really giving full attention..
So that time,skye kenal2 wif me..
after a while..
I'm attach with skye...and i was really in love with him.
but..then it lasted a few month...
till we broke up..
and it was only then...
i gave back attention on yazri...
then..

On my birthday last year..
i was shocked to receive a message from yazri..
a birthday wish and at the same time,he propose me to be his girlfriend..
at first i was shocked...speechless..
that was what i have been expecting...
but he did broke my hope earlier..
at the same time...i was thinking..should i or should i not accept him?
cos he was once jaja bf

but after thinking wisely,
i accepted him..
i realise once he gave his love..
he will give it all..
i dont go for looks or money..
i am independent..yes..
sometimes he treats me n all..
but i dont really accept it when he always did that.
i just felt uncomfortable.
its just me.

i just go for the sincereness of the love..
and the love that he can give me.
and i realise that he was the 1st guy that prove to me that
not all guys are the same.
then finally i found out from him..
that actually...
he was actually falling for me since towards the end of 2007...
he really isnt that sure whether i will accept him..
he did hinted..but i wasnt really sure of his signal..so i also replied nak-taknk..
he wasnt really sure that history wont repeat itself..
thats why he sent me the *best friend*
but to the real fact..
we have had feeling for each other but...
nobody made a move..
till my birthday..
and that was the bestest birthday gift ever..
and..ohh..btw jaja knows bout it..
before i accept him..i was thinking whether it really was ok to accept him.
i did asked him..and he replied that he assure me its ok..
She already told him,she's over him..
and she had even once said thats she have been long over him to me...
She had found someone better than him..
and i really see her n the new guy so sweet together..
he seems to be the right guy that she wanted..
well...yazri also told me that
cos he had once tested her when he was wif his new gf after they broke up.
and he realise that she was really over him.

so ya..

so next time...
dont accuse and call people name when you dont really know the truth aite..=)
i know you are a supporter of halijah..
she's really a nice person
and i dont have anything against her..
and i dun think she have anything against me.
i dont mind you reading my blog..
but before you accuse me..
please.... ask first k dear?
if you have anything against me..
this isnt the right way to do it..
you can always talk to me face2face or drop me an email..
i really appreciate you dropping by my blog..but by hate tagging..
its not a good thing..
just imagine that this is your blog..
and someone hate tag you...
it wasnt a good feeling rite?
i'm here to make friends and i never wants to make any enemy..
so thats why i'm writing a post specially for you..=)
hope you think again before you type out whatever hate tag you want k?
thankyou..=)

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

and..ohh..pardon me..
i got a c for my english in olevel...
(k.k.i know its terrible)
so i'm not really good at blogging in english..
but i dont know what language youre using...
so i just blogged in english..=)

2009-07-03T01:49:00.006+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.
wooooo~~~!
its friday already bebeh!!!
finish 1/3 of my essay alreadyyy!
the 1000-words Critical thinking essay...!
k.k..
kiki!go!!go..2/3 more to go...!
You can do it!!
Cant wait to go to school!
nyp,here i comee:p
hahaha..like rindu uh...
hahaha..actually just now i did when to the library for a while...
but then baru dudok for 45 mins then announcement for the closing of library was made..
-_-'

3 weeks of holiday suddenly feel like oh-so-bored..
actually the first 2 weeks was great.
work..gfs..bf...
then the 3rd week was e-learning week..
Due to H1n1
k.this is when all the boredness came...
when i realise i had to cheong through my study...
the gementar-ness of having it half undone...
i prefer going to school actually...
I'm excited to meet my frenss...
i miss u guys mannn!really!!
and...
Mandarin ICA next monday..am i prepared?i think i am!just nd a lil bit more practice!
thanks to aqila for helping us with our mandarin!
*tadi we chilled at starbucks,bugis to cheong through our Mandarin
but aqila was like the super girl n teacher..cos she did all the translation..
while me n naz just try to understand...cos we faham abit2 only*
*i'll my best not to laugh when i did the presentaton k?:p*
my mandarin still sucks a lil....dont laugh at me when i do the presentation aite.:PP
and ohh
I've done my best in my Psychology Powerpoint..
my fav subject of all!
and its on

Tuesday for the ICA presentationnn.....:P

and ohhh!
i have loads of things to look forward next week!!
weee~
i'm happy...

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-07-01T00:01:00.004+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

~HAPPY 1 YEAR 1 MTH ANNIVERSARY TO
KIKI AND YAZRI~

a.k.a
Happy 13 monthsary~!
i really wanna give you all the love that i have..
i wanna give you my whole heart can?
Its still flashy,bloody red...(it used to be very dark)
but now..its fresh blood red.
cos you gave it life...
as once you have said to me,
"your heart is in mine,and mine is in yours..
dont take back what belong to you cos without it,
you cant live"
well..
hubby...yours are still pumping in mine..
i hope mine is still pumping in yours.,
*dupdup**dupdup*
i really dono what to say anymore..
cos..you have took my whole love.
yes!finally,i've become blind..to see anyone but you!
No.!
no one else can have urs or my love!
or self!
i'll become The Hulk 2 if anyone was to take you from me...
oh wait!
its a Pink/Red Hulk!
seeee!its worst!
like monster+hulk worst!
k.k..i'm talking crap already..
i just wanna say..you took my soul and never gave back!
now i'm in a dreamylove world..
i wanna put a sign DO NOT WAKE ME UP
cos finally i feel like i'm floating..
awww..
k.k..why am i so feeeling feeeling this morning?
cos i really tgah feeling feeling..-_-'
whatever it is...
Saya Sayang kamu yazri...!

and oh...
oh wait...i'm suppose to be stress right now..!
the MONSTER OF essay Have been haunting me the whole night.!
i have yet to do more than a hundred word!
haiyaa...
i'm stresss but i seriously too weak to do it..
haiya...
i'm just in love...

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-06-29T19:48:00.003+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.
Haisshh...
i feel fever-ish..
Somehow..the whole night...i cant sleep..
Cos all night all i ever think of is him..
aww..
Seriously...
i just cant imagine the days ahead without his msg-es,calls..
Haishh
I can only meet him in 2 weeks time..
I seriously want no one else but him..
maybe this is what orang panggil demam rindu
aaarrgghh!i cant get him off my mind!
Seriously...Muhammad Yazri Bin Ahmad i misss youu!!!!!
Only god knows how i feel right now..
Seriously...my love for you is so intense and deep right now..
deeper than an endless hole...!
k.k,Now i'm seriously damn faithful to you...
*i realise that you're the One i want*
I cant imagine days without you..
I really had Change so much!
I'm no longer thinking of other guys other than you my hubby..
I'm no longer interested in anyone else other than you.
Everynight before i sleep,i will think about you..
Pray for your safety and wish that we could meet in our dream every night.
Yes!thats what i'm always looking for to sleep...
So that i can dream of you..!
hubby,cant you see how much crazy in love i am wif you.!
I spend most of my time listening to slow song wif you in my mind..
I daydream about you and out times we shared together..
i always remember those words you say when you held me in your arm,
about everytime you look at me,you feel like kissing me.
About how you wished that you could stop all the time in the world so that you could just spend every moments with me.
Looking at the stars..
Telling me if any boys try to disturb me,
to tell them that you already have a husband..
Looking at me deeply in my eyes,telling me that you really really love me.
calling me your wife.One and only wife..
Talking bout our future together...
Listening to my problems,my bitching..
hehe.
ouchh..saya sangat2 rindu awak yazri!
='(
i really miss those time...
i wish that Ns could give us more time together..
Haish..
i swear i miss you so damn fucking much!
sampai demam...
i loses my appetite to eat(nvm,can lose weight!!=))
and sick...

ohh..ohh...
btw..
I'm currently having Sore throat,
running nose,coughing...
shortness of breath...
-_-'
Dont tell me....
*touch wood*
hahaa...currently,
i decide to quarantined myself today...
Almost everyone at work is falling sick..
ok...weird...

Ouch!!i miss him!!
i really really really really miss him!!
i feel like crying..='(

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

2009-06-29T16:07:00.008+08:00

*wooo~! i love this picture so much man!tats y i secretly take frm facebook..;p*

Happy 39th Birthday mama...
I love you..
Hope You like the mini celebration we made for you.
Hope You like my present..
Hope all you wishes will come true..
Hope You be happy wif your boyfie..
Dont forget about us,we will always drop by your house..
N sleepovers tooo.=))

2009-06-28T15:32:00.002+08:00

you are my sweetest addiction,bb.

"Everytime i look at you,i just feel like kissing you..i love you baby!"
-hubby dear-

Awww...sweet isn't it?
well..to me its the sweetest..!
haish...
now hubby is gone...
to Tekong..
1 more week without any contact wif him..
No hp,No msg,No calls...
haiiishhh...!
well..at least we get to spend sumtimes together..
on his last moment...
*before work..
we headed to some place..
Somehow..
the scenery was super nice n romantic that day..
the moon was just infront of us..
while shadows was reflected on the water..
we always try to grab every opportunity together..
So we talk about our days n life..
about the problems that we're facing..
the things happening at NS..
about *someone* liking him..;p
then the rumours spread around..
bb...dont change k?hahhahahaha.
kecoh!.
i love falling asleep in his arm...
*hehe,he have the muscular arm now(action!hmmph)hehe;p*
while he watch me sleep..
well..
simply cos i was *literally forcing him* not to sleep..:p
hehe
jahat ehk kiki!;p
but he told me he want to be the one protecting me..
so..he cant sleep..
before that..
i told him about the online movie that i watched the nite before..
Koizora*its a japanes movie* watch it peeps!
*WARNING!*stanby loads and loads of tissue!!!
Its about 1st love,teen pregnancy aka 1st baby,parents almost divorce,moving on..
and Fate...
*well i simply cried because of it*
and tell you what..its not just once that i cried..but LOADS of time..
especially when the guy was being protective of the girl.
how much he loved the girl..till the very end.
the family divorce..
and how eventually..the ending.
haishh...
it was fate that brought them together..
i watched it till 6 am like dat..
and when i woke up the next morning,
my eyes was already swollen!-_-'
and my fav phrase..
"If you guys were fated to be together..
then even if you are separated..
One day you will...."
he concentrate sei when i ceritakan balik to him the whole story..
aww....luv u hubby!
then he kissed me.!
hahaa
then we distribute the couple notebook
(the one in pink and blue which you can put pictures inside
and at the front if you put it side by side,the bear looks like its hugging each other)
he took the blue,while i took the pink..
well..
then without realising..
today,i actually brought the book*the one in the above pic that he's holding*
which was full of love stories aka diary about him since 2007..
about the time how we got to contact wif each other and all..
which he actually terjumpa inside my bag and then wants to read it.
at first i keep on saying cannot!cos paisei giler siaa!
but then..after he look at me wif those puppy eyes...
i simply just melted and allow him to bring it home to read!
but he...
very disobedient*and naughty!;p*,go and read it there..
i was covering my faces alrd..
hahahaa..
then
i suddenly feel like going toilet..
so he accompanied me to the nearest toilet..
after there's still alot of time...that we just decide to lepak somewhere 1st..
thats how the above picture came by...
he was reading that! book so i secretly snapped a pic of him!
geramm!;p
then after a few times of telling him to keep the book,
finaaly dia dengar jugak;p
cos i gave him the puppy eyes this time..
;p
then we talk about our past life..
which made me wanna cry...
when i heard about his past..
then he told how he moved on..
which he already leave all the past behind,.
how much he know that they are not the right One..
and tellin me bout how he really really love me and swear that no one could ever replace the love he had for me..
and told me that he's sure i'm the One*aww!*
then i told him bout my past..
about all those bastards guys..who only plays wif my heart..
my exes.
about how i've moved on too now...
then2,when we were lepak2 skalik we were interupted by this 3 guys..
not really sure who they are..
hahaha..this 1 funny..
shall not elaborate..haha..
then when it was about time...
he sent me off...
aww...
i love you bb..
and this was his very last msg that i received till next wk...
"This would b my last msg till next week.
I really luv u dear.
I will never ever 4get u.
U no nid 2 pretend tat im ur husband animore.
Cos we r alrd married
thru our hearts.*aww..*
I hope i won't get 2 eat mi goreng evryday
aft our marriage.*-_-*
haha.
......"

aww..how sweet can my hubby be!
i will always be your wifey..
till death do us apart..
i love you..dear!
bb,do take care when you're in Tekong k?
dahde case H1N1 pat sane...
so must take precaution real well there tau..
i dun wanna lose you animore..
If we're fated together..
we'll meet again..
*hugs n kiss*

Yours Sincerely,
wifey
aka Kiki Anela Beaudelaire

p.s:in a few days time..our 1yr 1mth anni is coming..haishh..why must u be in tekong..=(

2009-06-26T16:54:00.002+08:00

i just felt tat something isnt right today.
Even our song wont play in my blog no matter how much time i press play.
haish.something's just not right.

2009-06-26T03:11:00.002+08:00

read that above?
now i f*cking owe starbuck $800++.
(only my store and those who come to my store for attchment since last 3mth will be affected)
so what dey kindly decide to do is...
cut our next month pay by 50% which is HALF!
till we repay it fully.
so its gonna take a LONG LONG time...
maybe till Next year?!.
cos my pay originally is ard $180-$200 this month and the following month...
so when they cut it into half..
Left=$180-$90=
$90 freaking dollar??!!
and to know that I have to support myself wif my everyday expenses since i was given NO pocket money?!
it wont even cover my daily pocket money for school!
ezlink?GONE CASE!
worst come to worst..just wont eat lah..
haissh..!
it wasnt really our fault cos we dont exactly realise that they overpayed us for the last 3 mth..ofcourse u see whatever is in ur bank..ofcourse you will just take iot right?who want to question so much when they see what's in their bank is enough to make it just nice to survive till the next mth right?
i meant..its not really our fault on the technical Glitch right?
we dont even realise it till just now when the person frm the department came in to tell us bout the bad news..
and i swear one by one..each and everyone of our jaw drop..
especially 1 of the manager who currently owe around $1900 if i'm not wrong.
i'm among one of the partners which was affected badly lah..
cos i'm surviving my own self for school and daily expenses n transport..
with the pay i get..
and to receive such news..
it was just like hell.haish..
and i simply just cant imagine for the next month when i'm having my Exam.
when i can only work for 1 day per week.
or worst.cant work at all.
e pay will be like $80-$100
and divide into half will be $40-$50?!
f*cking NOT ENOUGH!
Damn it.!
and we Cant Quit!
cos if we quit..we have to pay the full amount in cash!
i really cant tahan!
THATS THE WORST NEWS in my work life.haishh!
tomorrow jugak i'm gonna take sponsorship form frm TTSH,IMH(if they have),and maybe NUH?
hopefully i can get through it wif my olevel result...
and hopefully they will sponsor me.
*berdoa*
then i just quit work when i start getting the sponsorship money which will be more than enough...
please god..
and...another worst news is that...
My favourite manager is Gonna go transfer to another store..
shit man!haiiishhh...
welll..Kiki...
Look over the Bright side...
You still have A JOB..!
rather than no job right?!
well..
looking over the bright side today..
After all the part-timer partner and manager receive the bad news,
all of us went into a one kind mood..
and crazy.
i dono how to describe that.

then...
my full time manager...
who is another of my 2nd fav manager..
since she just gotten her pay..
(She wasnt affected cos she's a full-timer)
and she treated us as in me,and 2 other gone crazy partners
to Al-ameen
and also the taxi fare home.
awww..so sweet of her..
well..
I guess...in All the bad news..
there's always a light in the dark clouds.
Behind every bad news..there's always a good news..
so..i hope there might be good news coming in?
i just treat this as an experience in life?
there's always a reason behind every bad things.
cheer up kiki..
Look on the Bright side!

Yours Sincerely,
Kiki Anela Beaudelaire